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Monday, February 20
we're falling apart to half-time.
today Ivan spoke about mending broken relationships, and committing 'murder in our hearts and minds'. might've been kinda shocking - the easiest way to pass it off being to joke about it - but deep down inside I guess a certain part of your life has changed. at least, mine has.
but mending relationships isn't as easy as it sounds. off the top of my head, I can think of a few that I would like to mend terribly - but they strike me as impossibilities at the moment. I don't know what to say, where to begin, or even what needs to be fixed. all I know is that I don't want it to be like this, not this way.
you might say I'm tired of making the first move. maybe even afraid. but if you're reading this and you think I might be talking about you, well, please read on.
well first of all, I miss you.
not in any other sense, but that I miss your friendship. I miss the ridiculous things you say and do, I miss you scolding me for stoning over the phone, I miss beating your time at Bobby Carrot - and sadly I can;t even remember most of what else I miss, but its there I guess.
but don't get me wrong.
this is strictly platonic, as you might say. but all the same, I just wanted you to know. so all that being said, I hope you're treasuring what you have right now, and all the best - finally - from the bottom of my heart.
to someone else,
with something too far gone to mend,
perhaps there'll be a day -
when I forget it all began.