Roadkill, baby.

Sunday, July 31

take me away

know what?
i think i;m falling in love with
samuel

& kevin shirts.

;)
ha gotcha.

to see you when i wake up
is a gift, i didn;t think could be real
to know that you feel the same
as i do, is a three-fold Utopian dream
you do something to me
that i can;t explain,
so would i be out of line,
if i said - i miss you.

i miss you --- incubus.

8:32 PM

Saturday, July 30

html
ahhh,
just when i was beginning
to pride myself on being html-proficient,
i decided to try out incorporating
ANIMATED TEXT into my layout.
guess what, failed miserably.
(ie. got extremely lost and gave up at the 3rd step)
do you see any ANIMATED TEXT around?
no? well that's cos i failed. duh.
hello, sophie. i need your help.

_{i only}^{know how} ~~to do stupid stuff~~ like this. HELP.

on a not-so-side note,
here's something that might
make you puke/drool.
depending on whether you've got good taste.
AND i mean he's gorgeous.
ta -

9:26 AM

Friday, July 29

why, its true.
so it's true!
person-who-noticed is right.

august10, 2004
"haha.. oh yea, almost forgot.i have a resolution for next year's national day.i wanna watch the fireworks with someone.i missed them this year.."

but funny,
one year later and the possiblity
seems even more absurb than ever.

august23, 2004
10 things i hate about you
1 i hate the way you mask your feelings; perhaps they were never there?
2 i hate the monosyllablic answers i get,
3 i hate the cool; calm way you forget.
4 i hate you not thinking of my feelings at all;
5 i hate the memories of you - they hurt even more.
6 i hate the thought of what could have been;
7 i hate the way you make me jealous with a simple grin.
8 i hate the way you find yourself boring - you make me laugh anytime.
9 i hate the helplessness of the situation i can't align.
10 but most of all, i hate it that i just can't seem to forget.

and funny how
some things just refuse to change.

i still wanna watch
the fireworks. i still, i still.

anyway i;m sick.
baaah. how to train tmr?
i really want to! sigh.
we're gonna wash THE car tmr.
hee. gonna be fun. :)
dinner with the judokas and seniors.
miss them already.
yuuup. sneezing la, sneezing.
AND
very confused.
siggggh. do you believe in love?

8:39 PM

Wednesday, July 27

siggggh
hmm, well.
i tried la, huh?
i wanna go watch fireworks.
don't dare to ask.
it'll be too weird la.
damn, or whatever.

i tried,
kinda. heh.

i won't fall
ever again. i swear.

10:44 PM

Tuesday, July 26

if
wonders
and wonder-ings.

if i hadn't
transferred out of SA,
would i still be falling
for him now?

hang on
just a little while,
i am almost over this.

10:27 PM

just a question, or two.
question:
1) how come i don;t have any nice, cute neighbours i can fall for?
2) how come there are no nice, cute guys in school that fall for me?
3) what is with nice, cute guys?

(note: these are bimbotic, rhetorical and self-posed questions. repeat, DO NOT ANSWER I DON'T WANT TO KNOW. thanks ;)

so here are -
some teachers' favourite lines,
just for fun. :D

mr.
ho seng chye.
"alriggght/ahhhh, morning class."

mr.
alex kwee.
"okaa*ay, ple*ease take out your eco*oons TYS*."
(* please zao sia here)

ms.
fernandez.
"thank YOU, jerome. -BEAMS-"

mr.
tay.
"so sweet, ah, _____, so sweet."
(please feel free to fill in any female name.)

mrs.
mary goh.
"pleese kopi the assay question, vaily impotent."

mr.
alphonsus wong.
"t19 feesiks rep cannot make it ah."

mr.
TJS.
"okay that's all, i don't really have anything to say i just wanted to speak into the mike for awhile, please go back to your classes."

ta.
:)

9:29 PM

Monday, July 25

sleepy.

so sleepy.

i dozed off in phy lect.

as in seriously slept.

was dreaming even,

of what i can;t remember.

anyhow.

been inspired to work harder for GP

(ie. actually do some work)

i mean i can;t let two guys

get higher than me.

hahahah. kidding.

shrugs. someone tell me

how to study GP??

okay damn sleepy.

late nights with maple story

have taken its toll. heh.

gotta stop soon.

for now, gonna sleep.

going to watch my sis perform

at esplanade. CEDAR CHOIR YEA!

lol. getting a lil doozy.

kays,

chow folks.

oh yes,

school of rock was okay.

good but not better than expected.

hmm, yes i wish ronin played.

siggh. okie,

good night world.

we;re on the right

side today.

4:20 PM

Sunday, July 24

books of the bible!
genesis
exodus
leviticus
numbers
deuteronomy
joshua
judges
ruth
1samuel
2samuel
1kings
2kings
1chronicles
2chronicles
ezra
nehemiah
esther
job
psalms
proverbs
ecclesiastes
song of songs
isaiah
jeremiah
lamentations
ezekiel
daniel
hosea
joel
amos
obadiah
jonah
micah
nahum
habakkuk
zephaniah
haggai
zechariah
malachi

matthew
mark
luke
john
acts
romans
1corinthians
2corinthians
galations
ephesians
philippians
colossians
1thessalonions
2thessalonions
1timothy
2timothy
titus
philemon
hebrews
james
1peter
2peter
1john
2john
3john
jude
revelations

yea, baby :)

5:58 PM

Friday, July 22

you;re beautiful.
my life is brilliant
my love is pure
i saw an angel
of that i;m sure

she smiled at me on the subway
she was with another man
but i won;t lose no sleep on that,
cause i;ve got a plan

you;re beautiful
you;re beautiful
you;re beautiful, it;s true.
i saw your face in a crowded place
and i don;t know what to do,
cause i;ll never be with you.

yeah, she caught my eye
as we walked on by
she could see from my face
that i was f---ing high
and i don;t think that i;ll see her again,
but we shared a moment
that will last till the end.

you;re beautiful
you;re beautiful
you;re beautiful, it;s true.
i saw your face in a crowded place
and i don;t know what to do,
cause i;ll never be with you.

there must be an angel
with a smile on her face,
when she thought up that
i should be with you.
but it;s time to face the truth,
i will never be with you.

-------//you;re beautiful by james blunt

chinese talentime today,
clarrisa sang really well :)
was quite okay i guess,
the girl group who won were not bad.
it was held in LT2,
where we had our Rocka auditions.
i remember seeing you then.

i wonder what you're doing
i wonder where you are
this ocean's in between us
but that's not very far.

10:55 PM

Thursday, July 21

vagrant.
i;m a goddamn vagrant.
lost, insane, searching.
where, oh where, do i stop.
and how do you move
when you;re still tied.

cjc charity dance
is damn lame. bounce bounce?
seriously man. mass dance?
mess dance, more like it.
some dancers make it look relatively okay.
(yes, the other some should just
stick to their mirrors at home, really.)
made me realise dancing is an art, afterall.
i used to attribute it to courage,
or the lack of it. until i tried. haha.
yes, it involves skill.
so why make me dance when
it makes people cringe.

hey
congrats to
the canoeists - finals!
all the best for tomorrow.
i wish i could go la, damn.

school sucks.
no mood to study.
and got econs and phy mock next week.
they expect us to study the whole j1 syllabus
in less than a week.
madness. honestly.

ayeeeeeeeeeeee, i hate being alone.
brings out the loser in me.
oh, yeah, i know its always there.
just makes it a little more obvious.
hi, loser.

and see you.

8:51 PM

Wednesday, July 20

folded
the heart was folded,
placed under a can.
the design was pretty
it was beautiful then.

the words they meant
more than anything could tell,
that piece of paper
treasured it like hell.

now, damn its lost
and there's an empty void,
all that was left is only
up in my mind.

i lost the damn heart.
and i;m torn apart.

i lost the damn heart.

8:22 PM

Tuesday, July 19

the race.
tmr's canoeing nationals.
all the best guys. :)

9:27 PM

Monday, July 18

judo

i love you guys, really.

9:44 PM

twisted

twisted in
her own special way
the sins were too vast
to hide, and in
that fear she built the walls
that made her seem so cold,
but at least
the sin remained untold.

kicking, fighting
your glance suffocates
how torturous, that empty stare
void of recognition,
and worse - hate,
she dare not jump no more
for faith will
not break her fall.

tangled up in
the mess of memories
how choking, the untouchable can be.
maybe she wants to break free.
i need you so bad
she says with a sigh
all the while knowing
she;s living in a lie.

get up, baby
it;ll be fine. look out, honey.
this love will die.

and i don;t know what to do
cause i;ll never be with you.

8:56 PM

Sunday, July 17

baybeats
baybeats

crazyass fun!
shouldn't have worn slippers
then can go mosh.

quite dangerous though,
kenny even lost his phone haha.

met some people there.
by some people i mean
someone in particular.
damn lar.

3 times is really
too much.

damn lar. damn.

feel like going tmr,
got electrico. yeah, we;ll see :)
surreal was pretty good.
and some bangkok band also.
first band from KL was too screamy.
heh.

baybeats.
not bad la quite fun.
except, except.

12:34 AM

Saturday, July 16

clash of the titan thoughts.
clash of the titan thoughts.
hello there, you, reading this.
so what;s up?

the sun is so damn hot these days,
i get a tan just walking from the bus
stop to my home.

i think a certain mr THT
should record his lectures into tapes
i;m sure they would be bestsellers,
if you market them the right way, of course.
i;d go for insomnia cures.

last night
sam and wei peng came to my house
realised i havent been downstairs in ages
havent stepped into the playground in years.
havent hung out at night since, maybe 1745.
the kids at the playground were damn scared of sam.
it was pretty fun.

to night
its baybeats!
yum. music.

there;s this whole drama over the NKF issue
sometimes not all publicity is good, eh?
anyways. i doubt we can actually make straightforward decisions like that. "he should resign, end of story." to be fair, TT Durai (i freaking love this name, i tell you) has helped the NKF amass millions of reserves which can now be fairly given to the patients who need it. i think its dumb to harp over a golden tap. what the hell? you;ve been in his bathroom? you freak. many other CEOs get much more than him, doing the same job of managing and administration, except perhaps this is a charity organisation - but does that make his job any easier? does that warrant less pay? i admit, though, that deception of the public is something not very smart to do. and perhaps running a charity organisation, where volunteers raise money only for a large amount of it to go to your pocket, is not a very good idea. so change the damn system! transparency, high precentage of proceeds to patients, and so on. let the public know. don;t need to let the guy step down. take away his golden tap if you want, but keep him, i say. he;s done more than you can imagine. and i probably mean this in a good way.

so, results are back.
my first ever F. wheee.
NE - F (i always knew i was gonna fail this)
GP - 61 B3
econs - 69 B (yah dammit)
physics - 62 B
math - 81 A
on a side note,
i understand why people might get annoyed when i say i want one more mark for econs. but damn, its not showing off, its just human.

and i miss judo already.
not going for training today, feels weird.
looking at all the finals pics -
almost feel like crying.
all the burns, bruises, injuries, bleeding
cheering, shouting, screaming, laughing,
front crawl, throwing, prawns, and whatever shit.
most of all. i will miss everyone.
especially the girls. we;ll study hard tgt yes?
it;s been a great 2 years with you all.
i guess everyone is still feeling a lil
disappointed from finals, but cheer up,
we;ve come so far :)

then finally,
have you ever wondered
what it;d be like to be stuck in a fairytale?
not so good, you realise.
the happy ending never comes.

`

9:20 AM

Tuesday, July 12

the end
so, this is the end.
just like that. well :)
we lost both, but we put up a fight.

i'm proud of you all.
somehow this is NOT the end.
we can still fight. haha.

can't say i'm not sad,
after all, we were going for gold.
but thanks seniors,
for always being there
and telling us its alright.
for not making us feel like
we let you all down.

thanks everyone who came,
thanks for continuing to cheer
although prolly most didn't even know what was actually going on.
thanks for the support.

thanks to our juniors,
who supported us, painted banners,
bought chocolates and so on.
next year, there's always that.

thanks to the teams.
for taking all of us this far.
so, this is the end.
kinda.

CJ WOOSH, SHAAA!
in veritate, et caritate.
hahahahahhaa.

mind's in a whirlwind.
why is it that one year
can surface as if it were yesterday.
why does everything seem
completely changed, and yet
strangely familiar. oh damn.
and then who are you,
person-that-i-miss?

8:46 PM

Monday, July 11

damn it
after all is said and done.
i freaking miss you la, okay?
damn it.

finals tmr.
please Lord,
be with us. :)

guys, this is it.
cj cj all the way.

11:13 PM

Saturday, July 9

events.
on to world events.
heh. the bombings in London have just been - very unexpected. i guess we joke too much about terrorists until we forget they're real. too real. and what a time to hit - honestly these people should be movie directors, they have a great sense of dramatic timing. right after London won the bid to host the 2012 Olympics. i thought at first that Paris was responsible for the bombings lar. (don't sue me please, it was an honest reaction!) so anyway. i have nothing really much to say about the bombings. except to extend my condolences, and weep at the state of the world.

i'm just a single voice,
what can i do to erase
all this misunderstanding,
all this anarchy.
six degrees of separation
sometimes its so hard to see.

next, to fun events.
stayover at khim's house!
with yali, emma, shan, me and khim.
damnn fun la. hahaha. never laughed so hard in ages. damn, i wanna stay there another night. talk somemore nonsense, play somemore halo with yali, teach shifu how to play one last breath on khim's super horribly tuned guitar, laugh at stuff we did in cedar, and err shan, u better not go scan that photo i;ll kill you seriously. yeaaah. i wanna go back i wanna go back. haha.
love u guys.

9:06 PM

FINALS
we did it.
WE DID IT.
finals. yeah.

nothing can describe the moment
when carm got ippon in 6sec,
when shan got that last wasari,
when sherman threw jason,
when WE BOTH GOT INTO FINALS!

now its cj vc hc.
and we still can do this.
:)

tues,
toa payoh sports hall
130pm, pls come if you;re free.

guys /
wei zhuang - chin hwa - sherman - francis - davis - gerald - he jia

girls /
hui shan - carm - elaine - wei min - sharon - yy - yimin

its the last lap
and we've worked like hell for this.
all the way :)

8:42 PM

Thursday, July 7

YAYY
YAYYYYY!!!!
CJ GUYS GOT INTO FINALS!
BEAT NYJC AND RAFFLES!!
WHEEEEEEEEEE. :D
I;M LIKE SO DAMN HAPPY.

now for girls.
cmon guys, we can do this :)
RELAX. think of pink giraffes.
CJ ALL THE WAY.

remember,
5 people playing for
(11x2)/5 years of shiat.
hahaha. that's how much its worth.

ooooooooh,
yesterday was like almost
the happiest day of my life.
today also. hopefully tmr also.
hahaha. about yesterday,
i;ll elaborate when i have, err, pictorial evidence :D

chow.

7:42 PM

Monday, July 4

rock lar, rock.
i feel like moshing.
so rock & roll, baby!
baybeats, yea. :D

somebody pass my guitar
so i can look like a star ;*
RARRRRRRRRRRRR.

want my baby taylor.
so damn pretty, ahhhhhh.

baby M.

8:12 PM

tennis
wimbledon fever!

:D

yayy yay
venus williams won.
was rooting for her heheh.

watching
roddick and federer now.
want mr andy to win.
hahaha. he;s cute.

yeah, baby.
btw war of the worlds
is like really lame.
even tom cruise couldn't save it.
sigh.

missed ____ today.

12:07 AM

Saturday, July 2

la di dah
cjc judo ;
we'll do it.
to those who don't believe
i say bah. to put it mildly.

11:24 PM

what a day
whoaaaa,
what a day.

all in all,
its been a very good day!

individuals
went better than expected
for everyone i guess!
:) proud of u all.
meeeeeeeeeee
i gotta bronze. hur.

the only sad thing today
was that the TOMYAM store
wasn't open. shattered my world man.

went to cat high music concert
just now, was not bad. HOT.
haha cos the aircon was spoilt
for awhile. damn hot.
but the bands were not bad
and RONIN played,
damn they rock like what.
also, cat high people are abit mad.
it seems that weipeng's friends,
are all like weipeng. haha.

that idiot went to quarrel
with MR TANG today. crazyass.
but thanks don, alvin, wp & sam
for coming today.
and yali my darling! and her darling.
hahaha. love you girl. thanks :)
thanks to all those who came,
it really meant alot.

yay.
i got a msg today.
heh. :)

im so sleeepy.
guess i should sleep.
hrrrrrr. somehow i don't
really feel like sleeping.

well,
see y'all
blogreaders.

the world was that big
and then i met you.
now everything else seems
so small. everything.
hello, :)

12:14 AM

Friday, July 1

the friendster thingy
Determination is one thing, but getting your teeth in and refusing to let go is quite another. This kind of fixation figures prominently between the two of you at the moment, and it's a little hard to see how to get past it. Courage, friends; where there's a will, there's a way, and there's definitely a will here (even if it's too much of one). Try coming at the issue from the bottom up. If you can get at its foundation, you may see that this whole thing is really about something else altogether.

haha,
okay i don;t believe in horoscopes but i gotta admit this one is like pretty damn accurate. the same one for TWO people. possibly i have the same problem again. anyhow, no time to worry about that. nationals in like 3h. omg help.

10:31 AM