Roadkill, baby.

Thursday, June 30

indivs indivs
okay okay.
freaking out now.
INDIVS TMR!!
gawd. quite scary.
sighhh. 1.30pm, hougang sec.
i don't really need anyone to come, just maybe send me a msg. haha. oh man. i;m getting the jitters. sigh. this is probably my last chance to play. arrrh. =(

okay relax honey.
la la la la la la la la.

ICE CREAM PRATA
at hougang sec rocks man.
$1.20 for a prata,
with not one, not two,
but THREE scoops of
chocolate, vanilla & strawberry.
YUUUM. seriously.

math was okay,
haha. surprisingly.
still, we;ll see.
NE was idiotic,
now i really know the feeling of
oh shiat, i;m gonna flunk this.
damn. haha.

okay girl
don't think about nationals
don't think about nationals
DON;T.
okie.

saw KOEYALI today
yay so happy. hahaha.
bet i scared her cos she didn't even know who was hugging her before she recognised us. heheh! someone didn't wanna meet us for dinner though, cos gotta keep SOMEBODY company. hurr.

sigh.
i think,
i;m prone to
getting lost.
go figure.

10:02 PM

Wednesday, June 29

photos
HMMMMMM.
i never saw it that way,
but apparently someone thinks
<<<
those photos are.. well.
i don't like it.
gonna change them soon.

tmr's maths
hahahahah.
dreaded paper.
cause i only started studying for it today.
hmm hmm. well.
we'll see how it goes.
ta.

9:31 PM

Monday, June 27

ache
tmr's physics.
whee. exams are here.
-throws confetti.

i'm going crazy,
i really am.
do you know that
everytime you're near
everybody else seems
far away.

green.
i don;t know how
i got so tangled.

11:08 PM

Sunday, June 26

her big oak tree
:DD

there was a girl
with a big oak tree
she'd climb on top
and throw acorns at bees

there was a girl
with her own theme park
she'd merry-go-round
til her world went dark

there was a girl
with a cute button nose
she'd scrunge it up tight
and draw the boys in droves

there was a girl
with a pet racoon
she'd ride on its back -
it was gonna die soon

there was a girl
with a pleasant demeanour
she'd smile perfectly
except to a stranger

there was a girl
with a song in her head
she thought it was silly
but it's what you just read.

11:43 PM

sing, sing/
heyyyyyeeeeeerrr,
WASSSUP :)
everyone, i;m fine.
i didn;t PON church today btw, i felt very bad when i woke up (ie. headache and damn tired) so i didn;t come today. went to alvin's church at night though. at JURONG EAST. gawd, its damn far away i don;t tihnk i've ever been to that part of this city before. it was interesting, anyway. although on the bus ride home (took 105 all the way from jurong to serangoon - 1.5h), i think the seat kinda moulded itself into the shape of my ass already. hehs.
YESH, i missed everyone in church.
see you all soon.
well let's see, got
1) physics on tues - haven't finished studying.
2) econs on wed - finished, but not very prepared.
3) math on thu - HAVENT STARTED (read: die.)
4) indivs on fri - EEEPS.

so as you can see,
a rather eventful week for me.
hols have passed like *snap* that.
hrrrms. my last ever june hols in cj.
sobs, i don;t really want school to end.
i don;t really want A levels to come.

but now let;s just think about the coming week, shall we?

you know you make me go crazy.

11:32 PM

Saturday, June 25

thinking back
can;t imagine
how 3seconds can just
turn my whole world upsidedown.
haha. look at this fool.

//
so anyways,
its been about a year.
haha, A YEAR. damn, does time fly. i still remember everything like it was yesterday. (so cliche, pardon me.) the message, the national schools, the everything. shaln;t be too specific. ahh well, one year ago lives my life;s biggest regret. yea, its over, don;t worry. i just think its funny, how different a person can be. how very different. how when i look at you, i don;t believe what we went through.

happy
anniversary.
(wth?)
to whom it
may concern.

hahahaha, don;t get pissed.

9:44 PM

Friday, June 24

haha, been in kind of a photoshop frenzy of late - i know, very bad timing - and this is what i have been wasting my studying time on. siggh. =/

hokay, i;ve only got a few more days. so i better pia right now. or else.. urgh. yeahs. bye, later.

12:30 PM

Thursday, June 23

bandds

it's a little crazy in here,
but there;s still rock & roll.
`
THEATARIS DISHWALLA YELLOWCARD LOSTPROPHETS ALTERBRIDGE 3DOORSDOWN THECORRS BLINK182 DEFLEPPARD DELIRIOUS GOOGOODOLLS FUEL FIVEFORFIGHTING GOODCHARLOTTE JARSOFCLAY INCUBUS HOOBASTANK LIFEHOUSE JET MRBIG MAROON5 NICKELBACK OASIS PUDDLEOFMUDD RHCP SAVAGEGARDEN SISTERHAZEL SONICFLOOD SMASHMOUTH THIRDDAY SWITCHFOOT TRUSTCOMPANY VERTICALHORIZON

------------- rock on, loves.

i almost wrote a song

about you today,

but i tore it all up

and then i threw it away.

6:34 PM

Wednesday, June 22

without you
i can;t fight this.
there;s only one thing i want.
i wonder if this pain is worth it.
if my inside had its say,
i would be screaming for you.
but, no, my mouth keeps shut.
cause it knows it;ll only get worse.
this pain, this pain.
only you can;t hear it.

baaahh.
this heartbroken idiot is not me.

10:27 PM

Tuesday, June 21

ffly,
hello; she said,
with that look in her eyes
that tells him its heaven,
even before he dies.

nothing quite breaks
the silence that steals
the words from her mouth,
so her heart never heals.

softly, a love song
plays beyond her reach;
still she can't help but dance
to the rock n' roll beat.

so strip away, please,
this mask of tears -
make way for something
that relieves all fears.

hello; she said,
expecting the worst,
because deep down inside,
she knows her heart's cursed.

and her song
was thus sung.

10:04 PM

hmm
hmm,
i'm playing for indivs
31june at hougang sec.
i don't know if its a good or bad thing. cause i guess this means i won't be playing for team? well, sigh, we'll see. pretty scary anyway. yeas.

i don't know whether
to laugh or cry, i don't
know whether to fly or die.
i don't know who that person is.
i just wanted something
to miss.

9:41 PM

baaaack!
HEYYY I'M BACCK! :)
HELLO PEOPLE-WHO-HAVE-MISSED-ME-SO-MUCH. i;m pretty sure i;m not talking to a large crowd over here, but oh wells. haha.

yes, camp was GREEAT.
too short, way too short.
:( but still, good good.
timo was damn funny as usual. :D
and God was there, AS USUAL :)
thank You.

thanks HOZZEE and AHBY
for being such funny roomates.
tv and sleeping and ruffles rock.
hurr. and next time we'll remember to bring combs, eh? and abby its okay, you;ll only look like a ZEBRAMONSTER for awhile more :D let's go subway someday!

thanks HOZZEE (yes, again.), GIDDY, DARRYL aka RUGBYBOY, GRACE, WINNIE, JANE, IVIN and JONATHAN for being very open and fun cell members. i only wish we had more time!

thanks GRAHAM and DOM who carried me, the nucleus on their poor achign shoulders. haha. :)

well, guess what.
on the way back, the aircon was spoilt and we were being cooked in that bus, i swear. sounds familiar, eh? yea the same thing happened to me on the farmland trip. damn. i;m too hot. haha, okay never mind. anyway from now on, i;m MUGGERCHERYL. no choice la, or else i'm seriously dead for midyears. sigh. btw, got SAT scores back, weren't too bad, according to shufang. so yay. :)

10:32 AM

Thursday, June 16

laughterr
i just read this damn funny self-intro on Friendster. don;t ask me what i was doing there, i was just drifting around. anyway, its damn funny, i actually started laughing aloud. (as in, LOL.) here it is. http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=3626382 haha go check it out.

after you;re done with that,
you'll probably understand why i;m on a sudden rugby high. i mean, those pics look pretty damn cool don't they? le passion. hurhur. anyway since i was at the AC RJ match and didn't really talk much about it, i shall now. there's nothing like the rugby spirit in AC man. NOTHING. i think they won before they even played. and trust me, i am no AC fan. (i cheered for RJ remember? haha.) still, there was this.. thing. that said losing wasn't even an option. (i know that's usually RJ's line, but hey, go figure.) yeah man, it was rather funny. you hear alot about the AC ruggers, how they're a bunch of stuckup biatches and so on, but then again i give them the right to be, considering they're so damn cool. hahaha. you should see the sight of the entire school run into the field in one big group hug. i know, first reaction, ouch. second reaction, DAMN COOL. haha, and touching, of course. cause they lost last year, and swore to beat RJ since then. "Remember the face of Defeat and face Defeat no more." wha, coolness. heheh. serious la. three cheers for ruggers, for no particular reason at all. :)

i say RJ you say f-, i RJ you say f-, i say RJ you say f-, I SAY F- YOU SAYYY RJ.
sorry la don't kill me, quote, unquote.

stillstill,
RJ no.15 is cooler than any of you out there. hahaha. although seriously i can't even remember what he looks like. its okay. :)

RUGBYYY AH RUGGGBY.

ooh btw,
leaving for church camp tmr morning til monday. seems rather.. unhyped up. or rather, i am. haha. well we'll see. i got tons more work to study. and this saturday;s training is supposed to be selections. sigh. things don't seem good for me, the new injury ain't helping. damn. well, seeya.

9:38 PM

Wednesday, June 15

what's new?
so what's new?
haha.

new thing no.1 //

new specs! lol. they feel a lil weird now. but i'll grow into them. (hurr.)

new thing no.2 //

i'm LAMEEE!! hahaha. well, actually the bandages are already off now. i just had to show it cause it looked really funny. plus huishan had her ankle bandaged, so we looked like we got into a gang fight. this aunty asked us what happened and we said we were fighting. hahah. then we tried to think of stupid scenarios like, "next time you better return me my money ah!" or "TOLD you to be careful when walking down the escalator!". heheh. got funny stares from people.

well ok, can't think what else is new, oh yeah the blog! ahah. i kinda like it. its back to orangey, i guess pink and me don't go on for very long aye.

here's some pics from various places anyway.

this is the canoeists at macs; they were trying to pay with a Popular voucher. uh huh, don't ask.

this is them at FBT, they look pretty normal here, but --

this is prolly why the lady tried to throw them out.

lol, or maybe this.
(that's a.. i don't know what it is but i don't think it was meant for him to wear anyway.)

okie, some shots from SAF concert!

the class pic. rather artistically done. :)

meeeeeeeeee & teeeeeeeneeeeee.

SAF singers; spot the cute guy! haha. bet tini knows where, eh? anyone wanna pay me for the picture?

me, chip, tini, shawn. we;re gonna eat prata, we;re not gonna eat prata, we;re gonna eat prata, WE;RE NOT GONNA EAT PRATA. sobs. hahaa. indecision! sigh.

mr tay! haha so cute. i guess mr kwee can pride himself on the fact that he was too fast for me to catch on film. then again that;s not for lack of trying - he DID turn and wave.

i'll put up the sports day pics, err, another time yeas. haha. enjoy the photo frenzy, and chow :)

9:55 PM

Tuesday, June 14

SCREEAMS
*ROCKSTARR syllabus.

A is for ATTITUDE, babe.
B is for BEYOOTIFULL.
C is for CHERYL. *
D is for DISCO DANCIN'.
E is for ELECTRICO.
F is for FLASHY.
G is for GODDESS, please bow.
H is for HIGH.
I is for ILOVEYOU.
J is for JELLYBEANS. (go figure)
K is for KISSME. (and then somemore)
L is for LUURVE.
M is for MUSIC, uh huh.
N is for NAUGHTY.
O is for OOHLALA.
P is for PRINCESS, tiara to boot.
Q is for QUAINT.
R is for RETRO.
S is for SEXAYE.
T is for TEMPER - diva, baby.
U is for UBERCOOL.
V is for VODKA, lol.
W is for WHATEVER dude.
X is for X-FACTOR (whatever)
Y is for YUMMY.
Z is for ZZZZZZ.

pardon the ultra-girlyness for today,
at least i know my ABC aye. :)

7:50 PM

Sunday, June 12

the unsent.
how many times
have i typed out that
message,
but never found the courage
to send it?

my heart bleeds
~~for~~ in the unsent.

4:50 PM

Thursday, June 9

superheroes
its a bird, its a plane.
no, its superman.

there seems to be an obsession with superheroes these days, eh? think batman, smallville, spiderman, daredevil, elektra, spongebob =D .. and so on. so what's with these people that are so appealing?

honestly batman ain't a superhero, he's just a, err, hero. cause techinically speaking he doesn't have superpowers does he? then again, does daredevil or elektra? (spongebob is a sponge. i call that pretty super.) so, really, you don't need powers, you need some decent fighting moves, a relatively hot body (spongebob is an exception, he's a sponge.), and a tight leather suit to go -- and you're all set. me, ninja cheryl, on the other hand, lacks all of these; but i'm a superhero all the same. just cause i say i am.

SAVEE ME.
the modern cry of help.
only now we don't call for tarzan, we call for spidey. if you think about it, they both swing around. only spidey has a full-body costume, and tarzan, well, the lack of it. and what do we need saving from? work, school, stress, evil-monsters-who-want-to-wreck-our-towns? nah, giant monsters are so last century. goodbye godzilla and kingkong. hello tiny computer bugs and biochemical viruses (and plankton). unarmed combat is in, big machines morphing is out. no one digs power rangers now, seriously. (sorry i think i just offended the canoeists, haha.) we don't want lasers and huge machines, we have enough of those. let's go back to the days when we only had ourselves as weapons. honestly, the irony.

if you ask me,
i'd say the powerpuff girls are the best superheroes around. hey, slightly biased view here i admit, but i stick by it. cause they never shed any blood. and their worst enemy is a monkey. how bad can that get. they're colour-coordinated, they look cute 24-7, they find time to go to kindergarten, and the reason for their existence is explained simply by Chemical X. (wonder how those people pulled this one off.)
once again, the day is saved thanks to
the powerpuff girls. =D

corrinne may got it right.
i feel like a little girl/trying to conquer the whole wide world/everybody wants a piece of me/and i just don't know where to turn/i've got work piled up to my head/all i wanna do is jump into bed/and wash away my troubles with lemonade/play hide and seek with the boy next door/take a trip to Singapore and/imagine how i'll make the world a better place//if i were a little girl/trying to clean up the whole wide world/i'd kick the bad boys back to school/teach them fighting's just not cool/i'd give every kid a teddy bear/turn starving people into millionaires/break glass ceilings with dynamite/sprinkle a little sugar and spice/turn the bullets that terrorise/into pink poodles that bark but don't bite//little superhero girl, save me.

now,
i just want my
superhero.

11:28 PM

Wednesday, June 8

skittles
there's this split second
moment. when you pop a
SKITTLE in your mouth -
its heaven, i tell you.

skittles, skittles.
you make me wanna la la.

9:36 PM

this is my song.
where angels once sang
and birds once flew,
the emptiness screams
just as loud as i do.
where time once had no say
where we;d go out to play
i;d give anything
for just one yesterday.

seems i;ve forgotten how
it felt to be loved,
since all i had is gone,
somehow my heart;s turned to stone.
so, cupid, i think your aim was off -
those arrows didn;t hit.
although i wonder why,
my heart still skipped a beat.

how do i say, i miss you
when i;ve only made it worse.
i swear yellowcard was right
when they said -
this gift;s my curse.
maybe if i lost my heart instead,
i;d be carefree and emotionally dead.
i;d smile for no reason,
i;d paint the town red.

so, i don;t need no one
to tell me all;s fine,
when it comes down to it
no one can speak my mind.
give me hugs, and kisses,
and you;re-not-alone smiles,
and i;m back to the girl you knew

- if only for awhile.

9:54 AM

Tuesday, June 7

my phoneeeeeeeeee =(
damn, i lost my stupid phone.
no wait, stupid me lost my phone.
DAMMMMN.

left it in the SJI gym after training,
and now its off. i think its prolly one of the gym people who took it, although i shouldn't really say this, but they were the only ones left after we were gone. aaarrrh, shiat. mad mad mad.

its really annoying.
at least the last time i didn't have my phone, i knew it was still somewhere. (eg. michael tan's office) now its like. lost. for good. omg. FRRRREAAAAAK. as if things aren't screwed up enough. sigh.

well you know.
maybe its time to start anew.
now i don't have his number, any proof that we ever knew each other, and the only photo that i took of him - maybe. but its still freaking annoying anyway.

all my photos!! and msges!! and contacts!!
dammit. i dunno if my dad's gonna get me a replacement sim card, cos i think he's pissed. arggh. i'm gonna lose my contacts. damn you idiot who took my phone, i swear i;ll hunt you down. GRROWL.

okay,
better not come near me,
i might bite.

10:29 PM

Sunday, June 5

superhero >

dear superhero,
please come save me.
thanks.

signed,
cheryl.

10:47 PM

wedding dinners
wedding dinners are finnicky things, aren't they.

there's the bride and the groom, the family, the friends, the from-God-knows-where relatives, and the occasional famous people. tonight my cousin's wedding was something like that. me, playing the part of the i-think-i;ve-never-seen-you-before-in-my-life-but-you're-my-mum's-cousin relative. was not bad though. :)

the grand copthorne is a pretty damn nice place to hold a dinner. i think i wanna hold mine there if i get the chance. or somewhere better if i find it. not the hilton - i couldn;t bear to think that every plate of abalone i order may somehow contribute to paris hilton's new hairclip or something. anyway. the ambience was nice, food not so nice, but grand, very grand. oooooooooooh.

so, famous people. koh chieng mun was there, no idea why. so was randall tan. now THAT'S hot. i'm talking 100degrees boiling temperature hot here. haha. no kidding. looks like not everything on TV is fake, eh? well yes, he's cute and suave and very far from that dork he plays on light years, thank goodness. :) but speaking of hot, i think i almost fell in love with the groom. no kidding. he;s really cute man. haha but yeah, i'm not about to steal my cousin's husband, am i? nah. i just think he's hot. and he can speak french. gawwwwd. AND he's a naval officer so they had all these naval, err, people, lining the walkway with swords. damn, i'm gonna marry a naval officer. or if my husband doesn't turn out to be one, we'll just have some role play thing and pretend he is. grins. that'll be fun!

but yes, beside eyeing the groom and all,
i do have some substantial thoughts on wedding dinners.
actually, don't you think its kinda weird to shake hands with people and say "hey, thanks for coming." when actually you're first sentence should be, "err, who on earth are you?". well i shook hands with the -ahem- groom, and he gave me a nice smile and said thanks for coming, like i'd known him for 10years or something, when really, i bet he had no clue who i was. weird huh. that's what dinners are like, i suppose. okay, so not a very substantial thought.

i have to say this though:
NO SHARKS FIN LA PLEASEE.
it doesn't even taste that good, and we're killing sharks.
well, the animal-rights activist in me is kicking in.
(err, sharks do come under animal-rights, don't they?)

so well,
cheers to wedding dinners,
and that cute groom
(and of course my cousin :)
YAAAAAAAAAAAM SENG.

btw i miss my sister! boo hoo.

12:02 AM

Friday, June 3

if i kissed you.
if i kissed you,
would fireworks fly
would angels sing with lollipops
would dinosaurs cry.
would babies all gurgle
in laughter and surprise,
if i kissed you /

if i kissed you,
what would michelangelo say
would he still have sculpted david
would we be immortalised in clay.
would the poets write of love like ours
would john donne have his say,
if i kissed you /

you could be one in a million
you could be the one for me,
but i guess i;ll never know
if i never try.
i guess i;ll just have to grab you
in my arms, and kiss you. //

if i kissed you,
would you lose track of time
would you feel a surge of happiness
running up your spine.
would you run naked in the street
with a tattoo of my name on your behind
if i kissed you, oh if i kissed you /

yeah,
if i kissed you. //

11:01 PM

wonderwall, you.
i see your face
with every breath i take `

kiss me.
don;t know what i live
for everyday,
but i know it can;t be for you.
no, it can;t.

11:05 AM

Wednesday, June 1

music heals.
thank God for music.

//
corrinne may - save me
dishwalla - opaline
the ataris - in this diary
howie dave - collide
damien rice - cannonball
yellowcard - one year 6 months
bowling for soup - almost
gwen stefani - hollaback girl *
britney spears - do somethin' *
keane - bedshaped
lifehouse - you and me

* someone send me please!

think i'm getting increasingly reliant on my baby. she makes walking alone seem okay, even enjoyable. she lets me shut memories out, even if for only minutes.
baby, you;re music to my ears.

me, God, and my ipod.
all i need. bah.

9:34 PM