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Sunday, February 27
kyu grade 3
okok, continued..
forgot to mention that my knee is totally killing me right now, damn pain lah. can't walk properly.. can't climb stairs without wincing.. can't bend it. oh greeeat man. and i didn't even do many throws today. yeah, just realised, i must've played altogether about less than 6min in total, but kaos, damn shack now lah. =/ seriously i havent touched gp at all, and no energy to. haha. well today.. tried talking to someone, but as they say, if looks could kill.. well basically someone looked as if he wanted to kill me with his reply la. wonder why someone hates me that much. hais. ok to all j2s.. all the best for CTs.. hehs. (yeah right). and all you idiots who haven't got tickets for rocka PLEASE GO GET NOW. haha. btw, we seriously need to practice!!
kyu grade 2
yeaay, its over. damn tired now, can't even type pwopery. anyhows, i ended up with a bronze, which i guess i should be thankful for cos at least there's a medal.. but seriously.. not very contented with myself. under normal circumstances i think i mighta at leats gotten silver. hrmm. lesson one: my groundwork sucks. lesson two: groundwork is damn tiring. lesson three: enter my stupid shoulder throw already!! hmm. sir keeps HAII-ing at me, cos he says i should've gotten teh gold. haiya, like i don't feel bad enough! but ok, i'm glad at least its elaine who won me and not someone else. then we won't even have silver. kays, congrats to all u guys, today was pretty good i guess. although alot ALOT of wasted stuff which coulda gotten us something more. sigh. i know how it feels now. to regret how u played a match. u just keep thinking and thinking and thinking about how u shoulda played, and what you did wrong, and what u would have done, could have done etc. craap. gp is tmr sia. how to concentrate! so tired. yesh, so those from CJ lets see:
women
5-6th kyu:
extra light - elaine / silver
me / bronze
light - shan / bronze
sharon / bronze
heavy - carm / bronze
3-4th kyu:
light - yy / silver (damn proud of u laaa.. orange belt rocks. haha)
men
5-6th kyu:
extra light - han cong / silver
light - wee koon / bronze
middle - xuan rui / bronze
3-4th kyu:
middle - caleb / bronze
1-2nd kyu:
extra light - sherman / silver
heavy - chin hwa / gold
kyu grade
in case you're wondering about the "jia yous" on the tagboard, yep, kyu grade is tmr! hehs. for all you non-judokas who are going "kyu-whaaat?", basically it a competition where we fight people of the same kyu, or belt. so yeah i'm fighting under 45, 5-6th kyu. in short, the lightest of the lowest. hahaah. anyways. rather aprehensive now, considering its our first competition. hrrm. pressure man. anyways. thinking about competitions and all.. reminded me of one competition, individuals, i think, where i wrote someone a letter, and i got my yellow belt. hahs.
the you i love
i love
seeing you
smile
it reminds me
that you can
be happy
i love
seeing you
play
it makes me
proud
i love
seeing you
have fun
it makes me
smile
i love
the person
i knew long ago,
that everyone
gets and sees,
everyone
except
me.
because
somehow around
me, you
are
never you.
colourful
roses are red
violets are violet
sji is green
cj is blue
me is orange
barbie is pink
royal is purple
derek is black
cotton buds are white
dirt is brown
dirty fellows are yellow
the sky is grey
its a rainbow out there.
k - - - -
lol, rather amusing.
cheryl :
k---- is hot.
sherman :
s------ is hotter than k----!
joel :
k---- is sho-t.
hmm. now all you have to do is break the code.
pain?
i think the hardest thing for me to do,
is to walk past the person i love most -
and having to pretend he doesn't exist to me.
i think i'm missing you loads today.
i wanna stand in the rain,
so no one can see me crying.
nightmare
hey hey im happy today! i think its cos i trained finally! yay, judo rocks. judo soothes the soul. judo blanks the mind. judo blocks the heart. ok nonsense. i just feel good and happy and all. :) haha.
one thing though, kyu grade's coming up!!! arrrrrh!! scary. haha. although one thing that makes me feel better is that there is an extra light weight category and i am prolly gonna be in it. and that is good, cos light weight is like up to 53kg?! and thats 10 heavier than me! so well, we'll see how it goes eh. pretty excited yet not. haha. actually had a nightmare abt it last night. well =/ you know. first time jitters. haha. anyway to all of u guys taking part (meaning cj and sji folks), all the best :)
CTs are next week! somehow, i havent started studying. hahaha. wonderful, just great. i don't sound abit worried do i? well i am. just that, to quote marcus, the mind is willing but the body is weak. ok, i shall start on.. keynes theory now. cos i got 19/29 for mcq. sounds ok, but its really rather sucky. plus i failed my math test, 9/20. so buck up, you lazy bum!
rockafella ticks are out! 8 bucks per ticket, march 11th. come ok! :) haha. anyone in BAY wanna come also can! hopefully u guys can come.. support, yknow. lol. for those in cj, can buy tickets from derek if u want. (if u dunno who, he's that black guy) if u still dunno who, come find me. thankies all.
had GP ENRICHMENT with jeremy today. hahahah. yes, mr teacher, you are extremely helpful. basically he;s said about everything he can think of from teaching us in the 1st 3 weeks, so he didnt have much to say and just watched me eat chicken rice and talk cock for like an hour. (no pun intended haha) its ok, i forgive you. hehe.
tomorrow.. nothing much happening, i think. actually, forgot to mention. today was damn nice. slacking at the grandstand during break. about 3/4 of the people from Jblock level5 were there la. jus slacking together. rather nice feeling :) then nicholas and darren went abit mad, (not that they normally aren't) and started giving commentaries on the soccer match. (with very frequent injections of GOOOOOAAAAALLL!!!) damn funny. ah, the breeze, the slackiness, the company - i love cj grandstand. lol.
ta.
jealous, not?
cheryl;s
mood /
rather good, in fact :) hooray!
in music /
* greenday \ oasis - boulevard \ wonderwall
rise against - swing life away
jesse mcCartney - beautiful soul
evanescence - my immortal
lifehouse - breathing
accomplishment oftheday /
finished application of integration! lol..
gift oftheweek /
olinda cho's autograph from bruddy (:
=( /
people swearing.
pet peeve /
people using johnson's facial blotters and thorwing em on the floor.
odd crazes /
lipgloss
bedsheets
powerpuff girls
racer backs
orange!
him /
beautiful.
jealous kind
Jars Of Clay - Jealous Kind
I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
Sought the company of fools instead of friends
You know I've been unfaithful
Lovers in line
While you're turning over tables
With the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Haning ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind
Tryin' to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
For solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar
Then be broken by a lover I don't understand
'Cause I don't understand
One hundred other lovers, more, one hunderd other altars
If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
And love that shames the wise, betrays the heart's deceit and
lies
And breaks the back of foolish pride
greeeen... oh greeeeen..
look into these eyes,
cos they;re an unusual shade of green.
`
happiness like a butterfly
have you heard,
that happiness is like a butterfly -
it might fly away if you try
to catch it, but if you sit
patiently, it just might
land on your lap.
i suppose i miss being happy too.
:)
i suppose i have to get a grip.
sometimes i wonder what i'm waiting for.
in other words, nothing.
and suddenly i know how you feel,
suddenly i know how much you want it to end.
suddenly i feel like a small little girl,
lost in a funfair, because i let go of your hand.
and yet somehow knowing you let go.
just want you to know
just like you find it impossible to go back,
its just as impossible for me to move on,
at least for now.
you understand, right?
i ain't sure what i'm stuck in -
memories? wishes? love?
all rather hazy this moment.
all i know is i really wish you were mine,
but things will sort out in time.
meanwhile,
forgive me.
every little thing
every little thing.
let me in
to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come
see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time some times
lift me up
just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the ground
see all come
you say your all right
but I get the strangest feeling
that you've gone away
you've gone away
and will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time some times
don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be
every
little
thing
you
wanted.
damn
damn, i'm entitled to mood swings as well. okay granted, recently i have been feeling rather bad and thus this blog may seem rather sad to you, and perhaps for now i am a sad person, but oh well. i'd like that to change. but for now, my world sucks. school work is killing me. nothing to look forward to at all. just work, tests, more tests, and more work. plus catching up on J1 work. whee. not to mention kyu grade's in about 2 weeks and i can't get to training. arrrrrgh. yes, not to mention that the more i think about someone, the more i feel like crap. the more i miss someone. the more i wanna cry. bleahs. somebody saaaaaaaaaave me. (yes, that is meant to be said in the remy zero way)
concert!
hey, we got in for the rockafella! so its on march 11th. tickets going at 8bucks if im not wrong. not sure who can go, as in, if non-cj ppl can go. but but but.. if u can pls come k! haha. it'll be fun. yeah, had rehearsals today. lol. derek's sticks keep flying outta his hands. damn funny. anyway woot. there was this damn cute guy.................. hahaha. shaln't mention names. X) shufang he;s mine. keke. ok! this week apparently there are many tests, so i shld be studying. plus my math tutorials are seriously behind. SO, off to mug. see ya folks. :)
vday
happy valentine's day everyone (:
this year for me was, well, interesting. to say the least. firstly, ok in school. thanks to all the nice nice people who gave me chocs and all. love u guys. :)
hmm, both happy and sad. happy cos i finally gave the koko krunch to him, which i took great pains to find. (well, actually, oddly enough it was joel goh from t18 who helped me get em. thanks alot!) felt a lil better after that. and well sad cos he left it at the grandstand. hai. oh well.
hmm, so, supposed to meet joel ang zhi shon for dinner, so i dragged shan along. in the end, she went shopping with shifu, didnt go for dinner, and he jia came along. lol. met like the whole world in town today. first we were sitting down at yoshi, then saw ger and elsie walk past to we went to talk to them (as in me and shan) then okok finish talking, went to sit down again then i saw ivin adn joyce! then me and joel went to talk to them. ok. then walking out from yoshi, saw shinling walking toward us! then chatting awhile, suddenly someone tapped my shoulder. had to stare awhile before i realised it was yali's sister! haha. so funny. then me and shan chatted with her awhile. oh yeah, saw my neighbour vanessa with her bf as well. plus, serena, ex-cedar senior and amelia's friend, at chomp chomp. and thennn.. we saw kim ng somewhere, and the guy who climbed mt everest later on, and that benedict goh or something from the pyramid game ages ago. so much for a night eh? anyways. yeah we were walking around town trying to find a place that wasn't like DAMN CROWDED (obviously nowhere) so after like 2hs of wasted time, we cabbed down to serangoon gardens to cartel. and guess what? after waiting for at least 1/2 an hour, they tell us (and we had to ASK then they say) that the kitchen exploded, they can;t cook much, and they're gonna give us a refund. the only good thing was they gave us drinks already but just refunded us the money (i doubt they even realised but i was willing to argue for it i necessary) so yup. and then there was this booth beside us selling roses but they like wanted to close shop so they started giving out roses and i ended up with 3 more. haha. felt abit poseur there, but who cares? hahaah.
so yes, we headed down to chomp chomp and started ordering. i was actually starving but after all that nonsense that we went thru, didn't really feel like eating already. so, ate like half my fried oyster. damn there were only like 4 miserable oysters in there. grrrrr. yeah. after that went home.
yawn tired. anyway thanks joel for the candles and wasting with me. and he jia too, although i din force u to come. haha.
yesh, interesting vday. at least it wasn;t spent alone at home. well, come to think of it, u wouldn't really be a loser if u did that, considering its actually rather smart to stay home on a day like this.
hmm. i think i shld start on my application tutorial soon. not tonight. haha.
sherman's blog
this is sherman's/someofhisfriends' blog.
actually. i think sherman is just slacking, but oh well.
haha anyway its pretty funny. for those who are bored with nothing to do and feel like laughing at some idiots doing funny stunts. not half as crazy as nicholas i think, but well. not bad. haha. cj seems to have a knack for attracting mad people. cheers.
www.smothermymother.diary-x.com
have fun :)
okaay. haven't been to school in exactly a week. inertia sets in, and the more u don't go, the more you don;t feel like going. newton got one thing right. (okay, more than one) come to think of it, newton is the cause of many of my problems. so is keynes, and farraday, and whoever invented differenciation. ta. ok anyway my point being, tmr is like valentines day, and not only do i not have a date, i have to stay til 6 for econs S paper. what can be more loser than that, please tell me? HUH? haha. being bitter here. oh well. valentine's day. bah. its just a day created to make me feel worse than i already am? hahaha. whatever.
ok.. speaking about feeling bad. i feel damn SADDDD that i missed the cny judo thingy at weimin's house. for alot of reasons which i won;t mention. but well. arrrrrrGGgGgGgHhHhhHhHh. ok la, not blaming u shan. but then...... ok yes i am. hahahaha. nvm. so sian. looking forward to.. err. no idea what. next week gonna try to start training. cos kyu grade is coming. arh, been trying to do pushups daily and all. hai. is our goal really so impossible? i hope not. so well, im gonna train real hard. hope my knee will heal soon! heh. yupsh.
ook, total ang pow collections : 350 + 50 + 40 = 440. umm. okay la, think can get my ipod mini already. lol. somehow this year like quite little =/ oh wells. =)
what else what else. nothing much. hope i can get back my phone. yesh. PLS PLS PLS GIMME BACK.
wonder what if
i've found the answer to that question of mine. maybe some things just take more time. maybe its cos i can't help but wonder, i can't help but wonder..
i wonder what would have happened if i hadn't said no
i wonder what it would be like to hold your hand
i wonder if you'd still be letting me listen to noisy music
i wonder what your little sister looks like
i wonder why your parents are so funky
i wonder if you remember about the buses
i wonder why you like scary movies that much
i wonder how the people in your class are like
i wonder if you skip classes alot
i wonder if i'll see you each day
i wonder if you like someone now
i wonder why you don't like your haircut
i wonder how you did it
i wonder how you can eat so much
i wonder why we've never really spoken face to face
i wonder why so many questions have no answers
i wonder what you'll say when you read this.
i wonder who you'll tell.
take for the day
hey!
its damn hot in msia, but im guessing s'pore ain't much betta. anyways, happy cny folks! :) hope yall doing fine. why the funny accent? i dunno, it just came to me all of a sudden.
quote-of-the-day:
"how do i know carrots are good for my eyes? bcos rabbits eat carrots, and you don't see any rabbits with specs bouncing around. do you?" - by gaby (yeah, the warped logic of a 9year old.)
question-of-the-day:
"how do you miss something you never really had?"
you know how sometimes u go abroad and you miss stuff at home, well i do, but then i realised that its the same whether or not i'm abroad. sucks, huh.
song-of-the-day:
"dare you to move" by switchfoot.
this song rocks, period.
match-of-the-day:
brazil vs hk!
haha it was cool, although the score was 7-1 (and no prizes for guessing who won) bcos i am love with brazzzeeeelian football! especially ronaldihno, who simply kicks ass (and balls) very well.
take-of-the-day:
okay, i haven't counted this yet, but for now its an estimated 500+ ringgit. not bad, for my first day, eh?
sms-of-the-day:
abby!! thanks for sending me a msg all the way from s'pore even tho u knew i was in msia. and for reminding me what we prayed abt! thanks sweetie, love ya. :)
and that;s it.
end of the day.
chow!
weird weird?
oh freeeeak.
so damn annoying when i type a whole post and blogger screws up and its gone. bah.
ok, i watched flight of the phoenix yday, it was good! i liked it.
today watched fighter in the wind. decidedly bad. lame. funny. but bad. haha. although based on the fact that its a true story.. i respect that guy man. arms damn power.
hmm well, today was kinda weird.
totally didn;t expect what was coming.
umm hrm. so well. shaln't go into details, but yeah. umm... i know what i want. you know, don't you?
yay tmr cny partay in class! haha. we managed finally to convince kwee to buy yu sheng for us! wheeeeeee! or rather, kweeeeeeeeeee!!! hahaa. okies, really enjoy being with my class. what's your problem huh! lol. shove. shove. shove.
yup, then straight after that, zhaoing to msia for cny til sat. haha will be good to getaway for awhile. school's been so tiring recently. hai. in more ways than one. so.. yup!
can see my sweetie cousins, and get ang pow. woot!
haha.
happy CNY guys.
nights.
weird weird?
hug, alvin
ok, yesh,
thanks alvin.
AND donovan.
hug back.
200 times, happy??
hahaha.
yah im bored too.
cheers.
is it?
is it very obvious when i look at you alot of the time? i hope not =/ do you even realise?
i still
darling,
nothing much,
i just realised
that i've loved you
this much
since that day
i glanced at you.
sorry.
PWS
notice!
cheryl is officially suffering from PWS (Phone Withdrawal Symptom)
stage 1
thumbs start moving subconsciously
stage 2
hands shake uncontrollably - need to feel someone else's phone for comfort
stage 3
thinking in terms of sms language
stage 4
feeling out-of-this world and very uncontactable
stage 5
hallucinating that your pocket is vibrating
stage 6
hallucinating that your phone is ringing
stage 7
yet to be discovered.
lol. kidding.
good? news
ok, here is relatively gd news.
i can cancel my SIM card and get a new one for free.
bad news - gotta use my old 8250 phone.
omg someone save me.
any contributions to the get-cheryl-a-better-phone / help-me-murder-my-GP-teacher fund are always welcome. serious.
ok so.. same number. except no pictures, less inbox space (i think) and basically no colour. whoopee. beggars cant be choosers, eh?
phone's gone. yipee.
ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff-
ok, don;t swear.
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff-ernandez confiscated my damn phone. says shes gonna give it to brother and i can;t take it back til the end of the year. whoopee. i wonder if shes given it to him. hope not, then i'll try to persuade her tmr (futile effort, in my opinion) cos really, the bell already rang, and i wasn't even msging anyone yet. she can go check the sent items or whatever.
bah. so yeah, dun msg me. esp if yr in CJ. cos brother might come after you. stupid CJ. stupid system. stupid teacher. stupid me.
ok, auditions were.. ok.. haha. sherman;s friend is like damn good man. the band after us. knocking on heaven's door. woah, power. respect. and whatever. haha. ok chow.
fffffffffffffffffffffffffffff-.
i miss you still
Lord, please take my pain
because it hurts very bad.
and i cry.
this is home!
bottle collection! :)
the corridor
my bed - the pink one. see, i made it. haha.
toilet. hahaha.
new radio.
powerpuff rules.
collar pins!
orange corner :)
my closet..
notice board / junk hanger
swing life away..
chow! :)
and that, folks, was a brief tour of my stuff in my house. enjoy.
x-ctry
woot! tmr's x-ctry!
obviously i don't stand a chance of winning nuts,
1) cos there are lotsa madass runners in CJ
2) well cos i'm not running
actually i really want to. damn.
last chance to run in school.
but my freekin knee..
we'll see la, i bring my knee guard tmr.
yah, hs weimin and sf are prolly gonna kill me for even thinking of running. =/ dunno la. for once i wanna run. maybe its just a grass-is-greener-on-the-other-side kinda thing. but dun think so.
tini!!!!!!!!! we didn't do the rain dance la! tmr ok?
hmm. today after training (i didn't train) we all got scolded by ren jun.
which i think we deserve la. need more serious attitude.
hai i feel like a slacker when i dun train.
anyway, once i can, i promise to be more serious.
hmm. so anyway, prolly inspired by rj's talk,
i went on an exercise spree just about 20min ago.
on my living room floor.
80 crunches, 50 pushups, 30 leg lifts.
ok la, small start ok? haha. since i can't run.
yah. anyway if this continues,
hopefully by prom i'll look nice in a dress eh?
:)