Roadkill, baby.

Monday, October 31

spread the cheer.
A LEVELS IN 8 FREAKING DAYS.
WOW, THATS FAST MAN.
WHY I AM TYPING IN CAPS?
ITS FOR ADDED EMPHASIS, DUH!
BESIDES, I'M A LITTLE HIGH NOW.
MUST BE THE STRESS, YA THINK?
A LEVELS IN 8 FREAKING DAYS.
I STILL HAVE SO MUCH TO DO.
OH PLEASE PLEASE,
JUST LET ME GET THIS OVER WITH.
I WANNA GET ON WITH MY LIFE.
NOTE TO SELF: SCHOLARSHIP APPLICATIONS. =/
ANYWAY WHAT I WANTED TO SAY WAS
CHILL.
:)

11:55 PM

the linguistics of life.

faintly amused;
at the way you can be sitting just 2cm away from someone in the theatre one day, and miraculously build up a distance 2km apart the next - and the next, and the next. someone figure this out, please.

i can live without the melodrama,
but please, let me keep the irony.

like a paperback novel,
let's stop at the happy ending.
I don't need no Prince Charming.

12:00 AM

Saturday, October 29

don't shoot and you won't miss.

at times like this,
you tend to turn to the retrospect in search of what was once there.

i miss,
ho khim rong and her nice belly, and the way she thinks its funny when i make fun of her.
koe yali and her retarded smile, how only she gets my jokes, and watching stupid chinese vcds at her house (GOGOGO!).
shifu and the way she hits me for no reason (hmm.), and her NASI LEMAK & CHICKEN RICE.
cedar , 2 years and counting. the honeydews, nasi briyani, xiao-jie noodles, jogging, cheering, yada yada.
late night chats with whoever.
2t19 and everyone in it, everytime i think we'll never go back to that classroom again i feel so lost. (and i'm not growing chest hair here!)
judo cause we haven't gone for training in ages, and i really really miss it. even prawns. heh!
charmed - i've missed like 10000 episodes in a row and next week is the season finale. haha, sob.
tomyam cause i haven't had it in about 2 weeks and IT"S KILLLLING ME. :D
BAY , i haven't been there in ages and i miss everyone alot. :(
chilling and just like, maybe, not studying.
a friend , maybe you know who you are.
this someone , who really, might actually be non-existent. i don't quite know myself. i just know im missing something.
God - and You know it.

it's
hit or miss.
i'll take the chance.

10:52 PM

extinguish this anguish.

I know,
I read the papers for once.

I know there's trouble in America (tonnes of it, in fact.) over, umm, early-retired CIA agents, a 2000 death toll on the Iraq War, and the fact that most of them think they're President is a doofus. I know also, that the Bird Flu is, what you might say, becoming a fowl problem in Vietnam, China and so on - and there's even a risk of it coming to Singapore. I know that a 17 year old blogger can be charged for calling his teacher a bitch (or something like that.) - and really, if they were to put people in jail for what they call "going against the Sedition Act", then the pressing problem wouldn't be so much of moral standards as a severely depleted future workforce. yeah, I know all this.

BUT I ALSO KNOW,
that the only reason I bothered to know all this was because I know that I have to know them. and, to cut the crap (hahahahah), I know I'm damn scared of what will happen in about less than 2 weeks. for now, the problems of the world have to be known but can wait. I HAVE TO TAKE MY A'S!

here's to apathy.
cheers.

1:09 AM

Thursday, October 27

1.5832mm away.

i really

don't like

the sound of thunder.

the rain,

it pours incessantly -

masks the hate and the tears.

drench.

10:09 PM

Wednesday, October 26

memories and mixes.
hello general populace.
class pics are up from the last day of school.
let me see if i can link it. here.

1:00 PM

hop on the incubus.
50 First Dates is like,
the most romantic show i've seen.
(and i've seen it thrice.)
ARRRRRRRHH. <33333333 (LOL.)
*disappears into Hollywood oblivion.
see you guys tomorrow i guess,
i should be back to reality by then.

I've had enough of the world,
and it's people's mindless games
So pardon me while I burn,
and rise above the flame
Pardon me, pardon me.
I'll never be the same.

1:06 AM

Tuesday, October 25

oh, so its like that.
"the broom is an important invention,
because it helps me to sweep the floor,
beats people and crushes cockroaches."

"I got a friend named Jeir,
who has a lot of hair.
One day a lady's ~~butt~~ bottom was touched,
Jeir cried "OUCH!"
and he went flying in the air."

Teacher's comments: ouch and touched don't rhyme.

- louis tng, 2000.
(bwahahaha. seriously he wrote this for lit in sec1.)

1:02 AM

Sunday, October 23

friendship is paper-thin.
there's a deep girl
in the corner shop
selling sugar for money
in the dead of the night
her soul's in the sugar
and her heart's in the mud
and she's crying with a stranger
for someone to love, she says,
if there's somebody for someone
hey, look at me.

if there's somebody for someone,
save me.

11:17 PM

the world was way too kind.
they scramble past,
worry spread across those faces.
no one stops to ask,
they all think they're going places.

he settles down
in a different paradigm,
and starts to play his song -
with hardly a regard for time.

he watches silently,
as their faces sway with music
those pious looks of pity,
he knows he can barely take it.

they occasionally rummage
through the Gucci purses lined with fur -
$5? $2? 20 cents? no,
too much for a beggar.

12:19 AM

Saturday, October 22

addicted to the trauma.
http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=22265789
hahaha. just this one and i promise i'll [try to] lay off them forever. this cuutie lil galxx here has 47 accounts and fan club, lolxx. check out the fan club, the pics are hilarious. kays i'll stop now or i could prolly set up another RP affililiation already.

so to pass of my current state of humour into something less evil, here's what you can do on the bus if you're bored. 10 ways to irritate the hell outta your fellow bus passengers.

1) make exaggerated movements and swerve to the left/right/front whenever the bus turns or brakes, and inject happy exclamations like 'WHEEEEEEEE' whenever necessary.
2) tap your EZ-link card like 100 times on the scanner. BEEPBEEPBEEPBEEPBEEP.
3) go through all the ringtones on your handphone at max volume, and pretend you've got a call everytime. (ie. smile to yourself first then pick up and say "Helloo? Oh, haha, its you....")
4) ask the aunty next to you if this bus goes to Australia.
5) laugh damn loudly at the Just For Laughs on TV Mobile even though everyone knows we've all already seen them just about 10million times.
6) keep taking w1s+fUl~ / mIe sh0 l0n3lyY / mIsSh h1m` / *][p0ndeRinG][* snapshots of yourself looking out of the bus window. (HAHAHAH sorry i just can't lay off them.) - remember to activate the camera sound.
7) pretend to sleeptalk and scold the Gahmen. sure the seat beside you become empty one.
8) take a Bus Service Guide, ask the person next to you where he/she is alighting, help them count the number of stops to their destination - and countdown progressively for every subsequent stop.
9) give anyone at random the I-Know-You-Didn't-Tap-your-Ezlink-Card look.
10) call a friend and tell her about a) how the bus is damn crowded, b) which stop you are at, c) what happened to you at the market this morning, d) how heavy the Pomfred fish and the Cai Xin are, e) how Rosie next door had a quarrel with the 10th floor uncle last week, f) how the bus is damn noisy and you can barely hear yourself. (when all this time, of course, everyone else on the bus can DEFINITELY hear you.) - hey, if the aunties can do it, we can.

someone shutmeup,
someone shutmeup. RAWRR.

12:21 AM

Thursday, October 20

grabba cuppa.
i guess today was like any normal day.
if you wanna know what's been happening to me this week, just take this post and x7. here we go.

1) woke up at 9-ish in the morning.
2) lie in bed and tell myself to get up.
3) resolve to pack my study (haven't.)
4) message huishan ask her where she is and if she misses me (hurhur.)
5) finally get my ass out of the house.
6) take 105 to school.
7a) go into library if i'm in uniform.
7b) try to sneak into library and get chased out by the librarian, resort to finding another quiet spot to study.
8) study/find people to disturb/study.
9) bow to Noodle King and order noodles.
10) resolve to stick to YTF next time.
11) study/disturb people/study.
12a) if in Starbucks, order vanilla frapp.
12b) if in school, dream of vanilla frapp.
13) if lucky, get someone to buy oreo cheesecake.
14) study/get distracted/study.
15) go home.
16) tell everyone about my day on my blog.
17) check Retard Patrol for updates. (none.)
18) crave for tomyam.
19) wait for huishan to say SIAO.
20) go play maple. LOLXXX.

its always good to live by a routine.

11:38 PM

bright lights.
just like that,
outta nowhere.
you starstruck me on the head.

do you want this,
i know you want this.

2:38 AM

let the clone run wild.
forgive me these days,
my evil clone is on the loose.
the only excuse i can come up with for being downright mean. TEEHEEHEE. i doubt this means i can be any less responsible for what i say, but heck. :)

firstly,
the only thing that has been on my mind (and honestly, this is rather disturbing.) is the freaking Friendster lamerZz! FWALs, again. yeah i know. i am lIkk sH0 fR3akIng` oBCessEd. after much consideration, i feel a tinge of guilt as i poke fun at them. hence a new stand : can't help laughing at them, but don't consider them as inferior beings. just different. how PC, how PC. owells. i am a goody lil Singaporean gal after all. gotta keep those folks happy (and myself out of jail).

and to be honestly honest,
i was pondering over it and i think one of my photos on Friendster may actually qualify for a TWIT photo. teehEeXx. perhaps that would explain the sudden sharp increase in ~~viewership ratings~~ profile views, and the b0ib0ii who msged me and told me i'm pWetTy n' he wAnnA b m0i fWenZ? (nah just kidding.) just remember, the focal point is the jellybeans, not me.

secondly,
I NEVER REALISED THERE WERE SO MANY OF EM.
decadent society? oh gawd, lets hope it can only go uphill from here. i now truly see the impotence (lol!) of speaking good Engrish, as PM Lee is so inclined to promote. i thought my everyday use of Singlish was bad. now i realise maybe he wUzz aCtUaLi t0kKin` bT d3m. can you even begin to imagine how a conversation, say, with some US tourists would go?

*
FWAL: e0z, cAn aIi hEwlp eUu` pLss?
angmohguy: yes, hello dawg, you can help me piss.
FWAL: hArhHs, eUu` iSh pIsSedD aRrhZz? yYy L3HhXx, iSsiTt m0i sErVis nTt gDd eNuFf l3Hhz?
angmohguy: huh, whaadda..?
FWAL: eHhXx, eUu` wAn wAt3Rr iSsIt`? aIyo0Xx sAy sH0 lArrXx. (dIs aNgm0hXx aRhhs, dD eNgRiSh lIkk sHiEet` mAnZz.)

so you see,
the situation is far more serious than we think.
it seems PM Lee was right. (so was SM, oh no, MM Lee - but then isn't he always.)
the service sector is in danger.
euu nid a pwetty salesger? mi ish dd job.
die la die, really die manXx.

*don't try this at home. liable to brain damage.

1:08 AM

Wednesday, October 19

the friendster whore.
haha,
well well it seems that
me and gluloo's conversation on sunday about fRiEnDsTeRrZz aHhLiAnS was extremely on the dot, just this week alone someone sent me the address to a WHOLE BLOG dissing these lameasses. http://retardpatrol.blogspot.com if you're so inclined. whee hee. and someone just did a very mean but amusing in detail piece on a particular FWAL. [note: Friendster Whore Ah Lian]. fwal.

aniwAes`
mIe tHinKzZ iT hArDLy nIds eLaBoRrAtIon nEhZz.
go see for yourself. you have to admire them.
its freaking hard to type like this, sEriOuSlYzZ.

so go click on it, you know you want to.
lets just hope you don't see yourself on it.
one point to ponder -
why is it all these FWALs are like freaking HTML 'literate', and totally illiterate at everything else - languages, in particular. seriously Friendster made a big mistake allowing HTML edited profiles. if i see one more flashing 'Pretty In Pink' page, i will scream.

okay, well.
SCREAMS.
i guess you have to credit them.
they seem like nice people. they all hAtEZz backstabbers, liars, cheaters, people who msg them and tell them they're pretty, hypocrites. and i am such a mean person. sigh. i know i know. they must hate me. then again, why put mIee sHo fAat wOrrXx` then paste one huge picture of yourself there? if that's not hypocritical, i don't know what is.

but sorry guys
i know i'm in a mean mood.
:) but heck. its damn entertaining.

so, gluloo.
this post is dedicated to you!
tEe HeEXx` LuUbEuU 4eVaA wOrRxX`*mUaCKkiEz`*^_^

fwal.
nights.

12:05 AM

Monday, October 17

strip poker.
he played a gorgeous hand,
just one slight problem with that -
its hard to give up an Ace
for a 10.

1:31 AM

Sunday, October 16

in the broken places.
the ice is thin enough for walking
the rope is worn enough to climb
throat is dry enough for talking
world is crumbling, but i know why
world is crumbling, but i know why

storm is wild enough for sailing
bridge is weak enough to cross
this body frail enough for fighting
i'm home enough to know i'm lost
home enough to know i'm lost

it's just enough to be strong
in the broken places, in the broken places
it's just enough to be strong
should the world rely on faith tonight

land unfit enough for planting
barren enough to conceive
poor enough to gain the treasure
enough a cynic to believe
enough a cynic to believe

confused enough to know direction
sun eclipsed enough to shine
be still enough to finally tremble
see enough to know i'm blind
see enough to know i'm blind

should the world rely on faith tonight,
it's just enough to be strong -
in the broken places.

faith enough.
JARSOFCLAY.

1:19 PM

Friday, October 14

this photograph is proof.
wow, here we are.
at the end of the CJ journey.
somehow i don't think it's sunk in, but already i'm missing my classmates and everyone already. today was a bittersweet revival of memories - and the fact that they are no more.
graduation ceremony was fun -
i'm sure a few people got surprise mentions (eg. shufang and her infamous collarbone).
did i do anything stupid today?
haha, no not really.
i wouldn't have had the guts to.
but i'm contented as it is, well kinda.
its hard to put all these memories down into words, i can only say that its been a really wonderful 2 years, and espacially to my classmates - ILOVEYOUGUYSLIKECRAZY. :D
to all the friends i've made,
and maybe some i've lost -
i hope we still keep in touch.
now i sound like i'm going to die,
but hey, i can afford to be overdramatic once in a while, no?
for now, its time to achieve what we came here to.

goodbye tonight.

where is the moment, we needed the most
you kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
they tell me your blue skies fade to grey
they tell me your passion's gone away
and i don't need no carrying on.

you work at a smile and you go for a ride.

4:39 AM

Tuesday, October 11

its a trap.
supposing i fell right in again?
oh no, this time we're staying far away.
let's just avoid this, shall we.
they think the best way to avoid a hole
is walking around it -
but no, all you have to do is turn around.
take the road less travelled.

so she took off her blindfold,
and suddenly the world went grey.

12:02 AM

Monday, October 10

triple killed.
just when you thought
things couldn't get worse.
2 ungraded essays, one more coming.
HMMM.
life is no drama,
is freaking boring.
someone give me some action,
please.

the lengths i'd go,
just to be part of your show.

6:02 PM

Sunday, October 9

tried to save your tired soul.
tried to save our lives.

funny piece of conversation today -
"hey, thought you had er-hu class?"
"oh, no la! the er-hu teacher got heart-attack die already!"

if only skipping lessons was that straightforward. its a thought.
but really, life is so fragile.
one minute you're teaching er-hu, the next, people will be saying, "err.. who?".

we were meant to live,
for so much more.

11:41 PM

on the contrary,
judo is good for the soul.
unfortunately, it can be less beneficial for one's physical well-being. although, yes. shufang bandaged up and wincing in pain was not a pretty sight, but don't worry. no one's died as far as i know. judo is still good.

to shufang,
who prolly can't read this cause she's in the hospital right now, you better take care you accident freak. haha, if i asked anyone to guess who fractured her collarbone while playing randori today, i bet a 99% confidence interval that people would guess LOHSHUFANG. and well, they'd be right. haha. okay i shaln't tease her now considering the fact that she's really in a rather pitiful state.

all i have to say is,
the injury is 10% due to judo
and 99% due to her being shufang.
:D haha sorry girl.

okay whoever wants to visit her,
which would prolly be tomorrow,
she's in TTH. for details call her, she may have a fractured collarbone but she still can answer phone and msg back. lol. come to think of it our class seems to have a thing for fractured collarbones (think xuanrui.) well yes. so please pray she'll be ok. what a magnet for accidents that girl is.

open house today was..
let's just say it was potentially fun,
had there been enough people to witness it.
owells, all i can say is it's their loss. haha.

i only have 4 days left in this school,
and sad to say none of these 4 days seem prospectively, remotely exciting at all.
someone do something please.
ring the fire alarm. dye Brother's robe pink. break the gym windows before we leave. ask the YTF aunty to fry your soup. start being brave and go ask for her number. buy a nice box of chocolates, a bouquet of flowers, an ipod nano, and give them to me. ANYTHING! we need some fun here. hahaa.

GOGOGO.

12:49 AM

Saturday, October 8

they died trying.
it seems that nothing is for certain
and nothing comes for free,
when they're lowering the curtain
to the theatre of my dreams.

10:05 AM

Friday, October 7

smartass, you.
i look at the pile
the huge pile of S paper notes i have.
so much extra crap in my head,
and all i can come up with is 36/75 for essay?
come on girl,
you were never made for this.
don't be a
smartass.

11:18 AM

where is the love?
Bali bombings, part2.
can you sense the hopelessness of it all?
soon these will become part and parcel of daily news.
can you imagine a special section for 'Today's Bombings', and a Bomber-girl wearing some military print bikini reporting on it?
lives now seem so trivial.
do you think of, really - when you hear that 32 have died - the lives they could've lived, the dreams they never got to make alive, the friends they left behind? does 33 make a difference?
we are so fortunate.
we really have no idea.

8:47 AM

Thursday, October 6

when I pray, I
thank God I'm not the one.

how could You walk when
You went down that dusty street
how could You speak when
all Your friends checked out

how could You love
after the great betrayal
how could You reach out
when they nailed You down

true as true can be
that's what they say
You are to me when I'm so fake
does Your heart ache
if I had been the one
I would not have been that strong
if I had been the one, yeah,
I'd have been long gone

how could You hang on
with Your mama crying
how could You keep on
breathing in and out
how could You watch while
Your whole world was dying

did it all happen cause we let You down?

and all the things we think of
as eternal would come undone
all I have to say when I'm praying is
thank God I'm not the one

the afters.

5:08 PM

lets bleed, dry.
shall we?

its a great feeling
to feel like you don't like anyone.
haha. nothing much to care about.
its fun.

so,
since you were glancing
this way, why not we shake hands,
make out and play.

12:03 AM

Tuesday, October 4

have a nice day.
my results are freaking crap.
very disappointed, but what else did i expect
, really.
its time to study hard, chow.

leave this place
with no regrets.

8:23 PM

Monday, October 3

break,
so tired
of people walking out of my life
without a word.
you can just ~~fcuk off and~~ stay ~~out~~.

today i ran and ran
and ran somemore.
and all i got was a splitting headache,
and even more awkwardness.
i find it hard to begin.

11:11 PM

Sunday, October 2

40 love

middle-----------------aged

couple---------------playing

ten----------------------nis

when-------------------the

game------------------ends

and--------------------they

go--------------------home

the---------------------net

will---------------------still

be----------------------be

tween-----------------them

-roger mcGough

2:27 PM

ya think?
someday i'd like to
live in an English cottage.

stop and smell the roses.

1:07 AM