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Tuesday, May 31
pain pain pain
today was a blur.
pain pain pain.
where love and hate collide.
ARRGH..
cannonball
`
there's still a little bit
of your taste in my mouth
there's still a little bit
of you laced with my doubt
it's still a little hard
to say what's going on
there's still a little bit
of your ghost, your weakness
there's still a little bit
of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
so i can't see what's going on
-
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball
-
there's still a little bit
of your song in my ear
there's still a little bit
of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that
i can't see what's going on
-
stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to cry
so come on courage
teach me to be shy
'cause it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball
-
`damien rice / cannonball.
Monday, May 30
empty street
i walk this empty street
on the boulevard of broken dreams.
i walk a lonely road, the only one
that i have ever known.
don;t know where it goes,
but it's home to me and
i walk alone.
&
today i strolled the streets
alone, with my purse in one hand
and the loss of your grasp
in the other.
today i walked alone
along the paths we used to trail
along the place we used to laugh
and smile, where we met and
played. once.
today i glance at my silent phone
again and again, waiting for
perhaps something to happen again.
but i guess not, i know but
i just wonder why.
today my heart burned
as saw every place we;d been
and every step you once took
with me. i remembered your smile
and i still love it.
Sunday, May 29
insurance irony
y'know whats the most ironic thing in this world? insurance no-claim benefits.
so you pay the insurance companies so that if anything happens, they'll pay you. but then you try not to make them pay if anything happens so that you pay them less for paying you when something happens. how does that make sense, tell me? these insurance companies, tsk. most ironic statement : "oh, i can't claim my insurance lar, later they'll take away my no-claim benefit." so what the hell are insurances for in the first place?? weird. totally weird.
Friday, May 27
the ninja stories.
episode 1 /
the adventures
of ninja cheryl :
the attack of the bigblackmoths.
about our heroine /
ninja cheryl can pack a mean punch, and we're not just talking about fruit juice here. she'll judo slam you if she so wishes, but more often than not she uses her voice to knock bad guys out in just about 5 seconds. (interpret that however you wish). she was once part of the powerpuff girls, but got kicked out before they became really famous, cos she wasn't as cute as the rest of them. armed with honeystars and koko krunch, our famous ninja is all ready to kick ass.
today;s episode /
it was a cold, damp night, and our weary heroine was scouring the alleys for signs of mischief, when two giant white eyes stared right back at her out of the wall. at least, they looked like white eyes. after readjusting her eyes to the dim glow of the streetlamp, she realised they were, in fact, NOT white eyes, but two white slits on the wings of what looked like a giant big black moth. hey, you giant big black moth! she shouted, trying to sound brave. she searched her expansive memory database for information on this new assailant. the swallowtail butterfly. ah. see stared with renewed suspicion at the creature in front of her. huh! swallowtail butterfly indeed! i don't care, its still a giant big black moth to me. "the attack of the swallowtail butterflies" wouldn't be as convincing anyways. as she was seriously pondering over the serious issue about what to name her next issue, she suddenly realised that there were alot more eyes staring at her. freak! its a giant big black moth attack! she thought frantically. just as she was beginning to feel like a pretty useless superheroine, seeing that it was pretty hard to judo slam a moth, and assuming that they were deaf so her voice wouldn't do much, she suddenly remembered that she had a packet of mothballs in her bag! (don't ask why, its a superheroine thing). now, i know what you're thinking - but no, she was not gonna attack them with their own, ahem, balls. they were mothballs, for goodness sake, you sicko. so anyway, with her superninjapowers and accuracy, she started throwing the powerful mothballs at the giant big black moths, and thinking it was a game of poison ball, (well, actually it was), the moths started dodging the balls, and because of that, they flew into each other, and because of that, they fell to the ground, and because of that, they died. ahhh.. welll.. NINJA CHERYL SAVES THE DAY AGAIN! :) well, the heroine was feeling rather exhausted after throwing all those mothballs, when she heard a rustle of wings. an even gianter, bigger, blacker moth appeared and she almost fainted. (but being a superhero, she had to act brave again). hey, you gianter, bigger, blacker moth! who are you? well at this point, the newly arrived moth starts breathing rather heavily - and our heroine starts to feel a sense of dejavu - hey, isn't this the script from.. but before she can finish, - "cheryl, i am your moth-..." //
/ to be continued.
tune in next week for more,
adventures with ninja cheryl!
p.s - we have to review the show's ratings to see if its worth continuing, so please, if you enjoyed it, give ninja cheryl a hug right over there >>>>
Thursday, May 26
rugby
yay!
congrats to
CJ RUGBY who won
the plate champs today :)
rugby is a very violent game.
looks extremely painful.
anyways,
i being a retard today,
a very brave one at that,
and decided to cheer for
RAFFLES when we were
standing at the AC side.
hahah.
cause the no.15 guy
from RJ is damn cool can?
hurhur. X)
just a random thought.
is it me,
or did i see you
looking at me.
hmmm. lol.
gp tmr,
doesn't feel like it.
obviously cos i didn't
exactly study for it.
arrgh. so guilty now.
blahs.
anyway congrats
to shaun, joel and err,
the whole cj rugby team :)
you guys were gd.
didn't waste my afternoon
at least :)
the field was freakin muddy tho.
eeeyucks.
well, ta.
:)
Wednesday, May 25
the lane
the lane they call
memory, well i'm walking
right down it again.
its a sad place. with happy
thoughts but nothing
concrete to go with it.
i see smiling faces, and when
i reach out to touch,
they pop like bubbles and i;m
left here all alone again
with the gaping silence.
i;m falling into memories of you.
but freak, i don't wanna
do that at all.
maybe you still can make me
go crazy, maybe i still think
you're hot. maybe it was something
i did, but i really don't know.
and i'm too freakin tired to
go thru this all over again.
Tuesday, May 24
big black moths
holy crap!
there;s some big black moths all around these two days and they;re freakin me out man.
lets start with yday. was out with the canoeists and we saw this big black moth dead on the ground. they said it was supposed to be a spirit or something. ok, didn't think much about it then. then at night, there was one looking exactly like it at my house corridor! then this morning, there was one at the J block staircase, and one at the foyer. at night having dinner at TPY macs, there was one right outside the glass window. huge! by then was getting abit freaked out, having funny ideas about a moth stalking me. and then we started noticing the surrounding buildings and spotted about 5 moths altogether! gawd! damn weird! yea, so when we walked out, i was rather spooked and started looking around for more moths. guess what!?! i found about 10 perched in different places in the tiny space between 2 buildings.
so i've come to the conclusion that there's some moth migration thingy going on. that's the relatively un-scary reason. the other conclusion i don't really wanna mention. hmmm. freak, i;m damn afraid of a moth attack anytime soon. steffie says maybe i'm a moth queen in disguise and they're all my subjects awaiting my orders (or was that my idea?) anyway. that is so smallville-ish. heh.
its moth-ing time.
Monday, May 23
crazy canoeists.
went out this morning,
came to one conclusion:
canoeists are crazy.*
*for further details, call the FBT warehouse.
Sunday, May 22
i painted a picture
hey, i painted
a picture of you
today, it was full
of happiness,
but tinted in grey.
well, i ran out of
paint so i took out
my knife, cut my
little finger and
never felt so alive.
red and grey,
a colourless hue
the passion of the
artist, mixed with
memories of you.
still nothing else
can quite fill my
palette, than the
look in your eyes,
and they way my
heart melted.
the brush stiffens
and the painting
falls, and i stand and
look as desire calls.
will you paint me a
picture, a picture of me,
and then maybe
i;ll know what you see.
i love cj
you know, as i go on my occasional boredom-spree bloghoppings, i read some stuff that kinda stirs up some emotion in me about cj. now, people ask me, why the hell are you in cj with 8 points? sometimes i think and i say, err, fun what. sometimes i say i don't know. sometimes i say cos of my friends. sometimes i also think, yah, why the hell am i there?
but now i;ve got the right answer. i stayed cause of the people. friends. classmates. maybe even teachers. hey, 1st 3months was fun and maybe that's why. then, you may add, why do you still occasionally hear me dissing my beloved school? well, i've got the answer to that too. its cause the cj i grumble about is there system, the school, the rules. not the students, the ccas, the people. sure, i find it retarded about the kneelength skirts and the constant blackouts. sure, its stupid that we have to pay for alot of stuff in cca that other schools pay for. but still, cj kinda grows on you.
i don't know, maybe its the fact that everyone looks down on us that makes us wanna do better. no one thought anything of cj until our girls got 2nd in cross country, until we got champs in judo, until our band came off with gold at SYF, until we came further than expected in so many other ccas. so bleah to you if you dare say that it was a fluke, if you dare express indignance at the results. we will, we will, rock you.
i'm really proud of everyone in every cca who did their best and went further than expected, or maybe even not. but it's a start. even though the school tends to revel in the victories and cast aside the losses, we all know you've worked hard. soccer, badminton, netball, volleyball, hockey, tennis and rugby (jiayou!). and many more. for canoeing and judo - we'll work even harder.
okay, i'm no cj fanatic, but i've come to realise - i kinda love that place.
Friday, May 20
i'm sorry
i see your face with every breath i take.
haha, ain;t she pretty. thank you daddy for queueing up and braving stampedes and spending money on OSIM stuff and getting your car scratched for this. muacks! :) and dear mummy, happy mother's day! i love you. :) alot alot alot.
its been awhile,
since love has been reciprocated.
much less rejected.
she's not herself anymore.