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Thursday, April 28
torrents
feelings and
emotions /
better left upon
the shelf.
hahahahahahahaha.
do you know a bitter laugh when you see one? its staring you right in the face. bitter? why? because everything is so ironically screwed up. why do you love me / its driving me crazy. that phrase suddenly brings out all i've been feeling today. not because it applies to me, because frankly no one loves me. no, it applies to someone i've loved. somehow i think that was how he felt, for awhile at least. until i drove you crazy. really. i wonder, i have this tendency to over-react when i don't get responses. you should know. unsure about being unsure. afraid of being afraid. and that's how i am all over again. and you know, i think something's screwed up, but i can't be sure. i would ask you for help, but its all so weird. its like the same story, just different people playing different roles. and from another character's point of view, i see my own story played out. kinda. i guess this one's going better than mine. shrugs. why do i care? why the hell do i care. there are some things i really need to know, but too afraid to ask. when will this waiting end? or maybe, when will it start?
i wanna leave, and fly away.
to a place where blind men see.
i wanna stand with you on a mountain,
i wanna bathe with you in the sea.
i wanna be with you,
if only for tonight.
i wanna know what goes on inside,
if it burns for me,
if i should put up a fight.