Wednesday, March 30
the boy at the rock concert
* /
he was funky
he was cool
he had moves
that made her drool
.
he grooved onstage
he never saw
the girl in the crowd -
gazing up in awe
.
he smiled that smile
her heart went wild
he brushed past
her heart beat this fast
.
he glanced at her
or was she dreaming?
glimpse of a smile
just as he was leaving
.
her eyes never left him
as she sang her final song
she thinks
she's known it all along
.
.
.
she's fallen for
the boy at the rock concert.
7:46 PM
Tuesday, March 29
caaaleb
hey!
this is a note to say
that CALEB ROCCCCKS!!
he fixed my com in like 3seconds.
omg u rock.
rock rock rock.
he;s damn pro la.
ok if u have a computer problem
he's the one to go to.
although i'll tell him to start charging.
hahas.
he's really damn pro la.
cheer up k?
don't be gloooomy. :)
8:23 PM
Monday, March 28
weird thoughts
just a thought.
or two.
/ are bibles all printed in the same font?
/ if art is spontaneous, aren't art schools paradoxes?
/ if they can send thousands to war, why are they willing to withdraw troops for one single journalists' life?
/ are handphones conveniences or necessities?
/ MNCs are great. imagine a Coke nation?
/ can one lie change everything you know about a person?
/ why is osama so fun to spoof?
/ what;s gonna become of a world that only concerns itself with economic growth?
/ who the hell can answer my questions?
10:59 PM
who are you?
feeling a little pissed.
and confused. and scared.
afraid of people lying to me.
is this all a bluff,
who are you, really?
hai.
8:16 PM
Sunday, March 27
you're hot.
he's hot.
ahhhhh.
i said it :)
k.
10:08 PM
the easter message
you know,
sometimes i hate easter dinners.
the most important message in the world;
missed by people slurping away at shark's fin soup.
the only reason for living;
ignored by people who don't give a damn.
its kinda sad.
that's how i felt yesterday.
really,
its not the overflowing joy that i just need to share,
its not even the fact that i want you to have this joy.
its the simple reason
that i don't want you to go to hell.
sounds absurd?
maybe. but true, nonetheless.
now i don't get commission for the more people i bring to church, no brownie points for every friend i convert. nope, the reason we spread our faith is not to get more people to our side.
its the simple reason
that we don't want you to go to hell.
is that so hard to accept,
is it so hard to to see the emptiness of life?
after school is done,
after work is done,
after careers are finished,
after families are made,
after relationships are broken,
after friendships are lost,
after love is gone.
is there more to life?
yup.
right here.
in His arms.
9:22 PM
Saturday, March 26
new layout
wheee.
new layout.
like like?
i don't care.
i like.
:)
3:07 PM
peeeeel peeeeel banana
i'm peeling.
seriously. marcus will be proud of me.
now i know,
its damn tempting to peel of your skin,
no matter how gross it sounds!
(whats more i just watched goldmember -
well for those of you who watched it you'll know why that seems gross)
anyways.
yeah i've been abit itchy-handed,
so to speak,
thus my left shoulder has one
UGLY patch there. oh eeuucks.
alvin,
you owe me lunch at sakura.
i suffer all this indignity
to watch your competition.
hahaha. be thankful, sweet nigga, ok?
hmm.
i know yday was good friday,
but i still committed a grevious sin
by watching crossroads.
oh please, forgive me.
i swear i'll never do it again.
lol.
honest.
anyway my sis is baccccccck!
yay :) so happy.
cos it feels so lonely to sleep alone at night!
haha. yeah i don't see her much during the day anyway.
then again, there'll be someone fighting with me for the com again! drats. haha. no la, yvonne when u read this - i still missed you!
and she's nice, she bought some stuff for me :)
and a yukelele. (how the hell do u spell that)
funkay!
okay well,
decided i should do some work
so..
complex numbers, anyone?
10:17 AM
Friday, March 25
friday goodness
He made the universe,
then sun and the stars,
imagine its immensity -
imagine what He's worth.
He made the birds,
the beasts and the bees,
He formed the land,
and poured out the seas.
He went on to man,
i guess that's where
the trouble began.
He had to leave
that wonderful place,
just to suffer,
because of His grace.
He was rejected,
He was scorned,
He was beaten,
His robes were torn.
He was given no glory,
no honour, no praise,
instead the wrath
of mankind,
spat upon His loving face.
He was whipped,
He was lashed,
He was nailed
and hung.
and even as i despise
the people who did so -
everyday my lies,
my sin,
drive those very nails
right back in.
the goodness of friday,
reveals the darkness in me.
9:01 PM
Thursday, March 24
laaazzzzzy
today was LAAAAZZZZY day.
haha. everyone was in a really slacker mood cos we were all hoping for halfday. (in true brother paul fashion, he announces "halfday" - where we end at 3.30 - at 12plus. oh well better than nothing aye? well to name those who left early today - in a manner reminiscent of our once-carefree j1 days - would be quite bad, so i shall spare timothy ganesh vik and weekoon. while the rest of us actually had the will to stay on - for 1h of ho seng chye, no less - we were all feel rather, well, rebellious. haha. except we only got to the extent of thinking of ponning math and slacking at the grandstand. i guess there's some stuff that you just can;t do as a j2, i don't know why. so annoying. hahas. anyhow, math ended up being pretty ok since mr. ho was in an okay mood and seemed to go on and on about vicky's trumpet. (apparently he borrowed a book on how to blow a trumpet. right.) hahaha. seeing all the j1s at orientation makes me so wistful! (well except when they're playing all those dumb games in the damn hot quadrangle, and when they're being tied to each other's wrists and made to walk around the school.) actually come to think of it, i don't miss all the games, i just miss not having classes. hahaha.
meet the slacking princess,
my newfound identity which i embrace.
well, for awhile at least.
until i become queen.
8:02 PM
Wednesday, March 23
i'm sure
she said
i'm sure he will come back
but he never did
she said its okay
i'll wait
but soon loneliness
was too hard to bear
she said
what;s the point
of waiting
for nothing?
she said
i should move on
all this waiting
is really a pain
she said
i'm sure i'll be fine
i'm sure its no problem
i'm sure...
only it took damn long
she said
okay now i'm over him
i feel good
i feel free
now where do i go
from here
she said
i just wanna
love
again.
9:49 PM
58
guess what?
58 is the new 13.
at least for me.
know why?
gp - 58 C
that makes 3 58s,
3 Cs, 3 almost-Bs.
eurrrgh.
(haha try pronouncing that)
went out with my mummy for dinner.
just me and her. kewl :)
went to sushi tei!
haha it rocked.
yummmy sashimi and stuff.
ahhh.
love mummy.
9:44 PM
Tuesday, March 22
bumblebee
it flies around
it's hard to see
its yellow and round
that little bumblebee
;
its makes honey
it gives a buzz
the stuff is yummy
so what's the fuss?
;
its just a little
bumble
bee
;
>0<
10:35 PM
CT
well,
CT results are out.
honestly i guess i should be contented simply cos i know i didn't put in much effort to studying. blame it on kyu grade, blame it on whatever, i still didn't. but it feels kinda sucky when everyone expects you to do well and you don't. what the hell? this girl is taking S papers and she got this kinda marks? well, you know. and so on.
but anyhow, here's the deal.
econs - 58 C
math - 67 B
phy - 58 C
whoopee.
8:28 PM
Monday, March 21
clar tini cheryl
whee my PW mateys =)
i love both of em to bits. =)
fragile rocks.
hahaha i so love this pic. its wacky and retarded and SO US. haha. wee koon looks really CUUUUUUUTE eh? that's him. haha, basically to josh derek koon marcus thanks again for all the fun we had! looking at this pic just makes me smile la =P
8:59 PM
how to annoy the bus driver
here's 10 ways to annoy
the bus driver on your ride home /
10 ways to entertain yourself.
[ 1 ]
"uncle, can return the change or not, i'm broke lah.."
[ 2 ]
"uncle, can you tell me when we're exactly 100m away from the stop? i need to tap my card." (and then follow up consequently with "are we at 100m yet?" for the rest of the journey at frequent intervals)
[ 3 ]
keep tapping your card on the sensors and make it beep like crazy.
[ 4 ]
stand near the driver's seat and shout "WATCH OUTT!!" everytime a car in front slows down.
[ 5 ]
"uncle, can stop at this junction for awhile or not, i need to go toilet.."
[ 6 ]
"WALAO EH, the TVmobile not working AGAIN?!"
[ 7 ]
stand beside the driver's seat and pretend to be driving the bus as well. (eg. mime a steering wheel and follow with subsequent body motions)
[ 8 ]
"uncle, why u become bus driver ah.."
[ 9 ]
pay your fare in coins, take the ticket, fold the ticket into a heart, then give it to the bus driver. (okay, this is not guaranteed to work, he might actually like it)
[ 10 ]
"eh uncle! .. oh sorry, aunty .."
8:05 PM
Sunday, March 20
canoeingg
wha, i'm damn burnt.
red like a tomato on fire.
hmm, how come?
went to canoeing finals at kallang.
was pretty exciting,
during the matches that is.
in between i was pretty bored
cos alvin kept running away somewhere.
haha. ok yah i didn't talk much the whole day.
anyways, congrats to
tim who got a gold,
alvin and weipeng for the silver,
and daniel and tim again for bronze.
kewl. nice work.
=)
and also saw huiying there!
she got a gold and a bronze if i'm not wrong.
rock on.
oh wells.
school's starting again.
the worst term of the year commences.
argh.
i didn't study alot this week,
let alone do my homework.
freekin slacker.
how =(
i don't really relish the thought
of getting CT results,
cos apparently i didn't do well.
HAI.
boring life begins again.
somemore..
no more eye candy ;(
hahah.
ok...
well see y'all in school or something.
oh btw,
bow to the ORANGE belt.
wahahahaha.
ok yeah,
tell u a secret.
we didn't fight shiai,
by some fluke
and a very lucky one at that.
so everyone passed :)
7:55 PM
Saturday, March 19
FREEEE.
i'm
FREE.
i am. really.
it feels so damn good.
goodbye
to you.
love.
freedom.
ah.
(:
12:15 AM
Friday, March 18
orange belt grading
ahhhhh.
tmr got grading.
yellow to orange.
hahahs. WOOOT.
that is, if i pass.
somehow rather doubtful about my breakfall.
SHEEEET.
please please don't fail me on breakfall.
hmmm,
okay lets see.
(specially for ho huishan, except the spelling may be wrong i'm not very sure)
throws /
sasae-tsurigomi-ashi > block ankle one
uki-goshi > floating hip
seoi-nage > shoulder throw u should know
ouchigari > the O one, left leg
kouchigari > sweep one, right leg start
kosoto-gari > uh, that one
tsuri-goshi > grab belt
koshi-guruma > wring the neck one
newaza /
kata-guruma > dunno how to explain also
yoko-shio-katame > side fall
kuzure-yoko-shio > broken side fall
kami-shio-katame > the stomach one
kuzure-kami-shio > broken stomach
yeah thats all.
lol. easier said than done.
and then there's shiiai.
and then there's shiiai.
11:10 PM
Thursday, March 17
bizarre love triangle / disappear.
frente /
hoobastank
bizarre love triangle /
disappear
everytime i think of you
i get a shot right thru into a bolt of blue /
there's a pain that sleeps inside
it sleeps with just one eye /
it's no problem of mine
but its a problem i find /
and awakens the moment that you're near
though i try to look away /
living the life that i
can't leave behind /
the pain still remains, only leaving
when you're next to me /
there's no sense in telling me
the wisdom of a fool won't set you free /
do you know, that everytime you're near
everybody else seems far away /
but that's the way that it goes
and its what nobody knows /
so can you come and
make them disappear /
and everyday
my confusion grows /
make them disappear
and we can stay //
everytime i see you falling
i get down on my knees and pray /
so i stand and look around
distracted by the sounds of everyone
and everything i see /
i'm waiting for
that final moment /
and i search thru every face
without a single trace of
the person that i need /
you say the words that
i can't say //
do you know, that everytime you're near
everybody else seems far away /
i feel fine and i feel good
feeling like i never should /
so can you come and
make them disappear /
whenever i get this way i just don't know
what to say why can't we be
ourselves like we were yesterday /
make them disappear
and we can stay //
i'm not sure what this could mean
i don't think you're what you seem /
can you make
them disappear? /
i do admit to myself
that if i hurt someone else then we'll
never see just what we're meant to be /
make them disappear /
everytime i see you falling
i get down on my knees and pray /
do you know /
i'm waiting for the final moment /
everytime you're near /
you'll say the words /
everybody else seems far away /
that i can't say /
so can you come and
make them disappear. //
mixed up /
breaking down.
10:19 AM
Wednesday, March 16
oh fuck
i'm taking you out of my
life.
right. now. i need to.
i really hate you.
10:53 PM
series of events
today,
a series of, well,
events.
event #1
first trip to a police station!
no, i didn't get caught for doing drugs - i am too smart for that. nope, gab lost his wallet (and in it the all important 11B) so he had to go make a report and me being the kind person i am, accompanied him to do it. took ages man! think the officer was finding it hard to accept that he didn't exactly know how he lost it. but i mean, most people don't do they? or it wouldn't exactly be lost. anyhow. it was pretty interesting. alot of brochures and stuff in there - how to prevent motor vehicle theft, snatch theives and how they operate, and so on. also read this poster on how to tell if your maid's IC is real or fake. hahah. yeah, i was pretty bored to tell you the truth.
event #2
tom yam!
need not be explained, but it momentuous anyhow. :)
event #3
POOL.
not only that,
I WON GAB AND SMELLYMAN.
woohoo. 100% winning streak!
(ok given i only played 2 games and won both, but still.) hahaha. gab says im too scared to play again, i say i just wanna keep him awake at night moaning at the thought of losing to me. it works, trust me :P
event #4
got hit on the head.
by a freekin soccer ball.
kicked by a freekin little kid.
OUCH.
seriously la i just stepped one foot into the soccer court and BAM something knocks the wind outta my head. first reaction : " wha LAO!!" - second reaction : turn around and glare at the small kid. - small kid's reaction : "sorry sorry.." (although he didn't look very sorry, he was grinning) - third reaction : about to walk over and wring his tiny little neck but exercised a little self-restraint and resorted to giving a very dirty look. - fourth reaction : go toilet and hide. - coming out of toilet : some of those small kids outside the toilet, look at me and say : "eh, that one is just now u hit that one right? not bad ah.." - final reaction : fume..
event #5
found some pics of someone by accident. i think to myself - hey, how come i got so excited over them when im supposed to be over that someone? - and this does not look good. really.
7:50 PM
Tuesday, March 15
movie bites
cheryl;s
movie bites.
howl's moving castle >
about this girl who is turned into an old woman by a spell cast by an evil witch, and she ends up in the moving castle of howl (hence the name of the show) as a cleaner lady but wouldn't you know it, they both fall in love and yada yada. the fire demon, Calcifer, is pretty cute, and the Witch of the Waste, who turns into a damn fat ugly old lady, is, well, a damn fat ugly old lady. the show ain't bad really, but the plot is abit complex/dubious.
***
assault on precinct 13 >
fight between criminals and cops, cops and cops, criminals and criminals, and basically everyone fights everyone. lotsa tension and sick moments, (ie. violently sticking an icicle into a man's eye) but sorta predictable. however i tend to like thrillers, so i give this
***/ (which means 3 and a half stars)
ta, people. :)
10:44 PM
Monday, March 14
disney on ice!
disney-on-ice ~
i wanna go........
with someone....
hahah.
12:44 PM
when i sneeze
OUCH
it hurts when i sneeze,
in more than one way.
11:12 AM
Sunday, March 13
black
black,
the complete lack of colour,
or the fusion of all ;
the coldness of winter,
or nighttime of fall ?
the epitome of evil,
or purely misunderstood ;
the making of fear,
or perfect creation of mood ?
the crowns that we wear,
fade as though barely there
but, oh, the many shades of black
we cannot begin to compare.
yeah, this is the lame poem that won the third prize for the creative writing competition. hahaha. beats me.
10:49 PM
rocka / training camp detail
whee.
i just survived..
my first bath after training camp.
it was torture, pure agony.
my hands look like a tiger tried to attack and bite off my fingers - and failed. seriously all the skin from the joint are gone. well u can imagine the pain of water on raw skin eh? oh wells. knee's kinda pain as usual. limping abit. lucky tmr no school. camp was.. okay? i didn;t do some stuff and thats maybe the reason why im not that tired, but i think overall it wasn't as tough as last year. and.. after what poorn and rj said, i think i should learn to endure more pain. as in, notjust stop whenever my knee hurts. yup. tried that today, but really couldn't take it right at the end. hmm. yeahs. so thats that.
shall now go into the details of rockafellaskank. basically, it rocked! hahas. and i am not just saying this cos i performed. i think overall it was a rather entertaining performance, don't u agree? plus a hell lotta people turned up! very encouraging. well before that everyone was rather tense, and we backstage were just talking to each other although we were practically strangers. nervousness makes u do weird things. like jump about for nothing, forget to tune guitars, and so on. hahah. ok im over that, but i think it really sucked! as in the boulevard song. even onstage i felt like stopping. hahaha. was cringing at every other note. ok hmm, thanks nick for kneeling to me onstage and sorry for seemingly being evil and throwing the flower on the floor. hahah. i had to play yknow. although come to think of it, maybe i just shouldn;t have! haha. yesh and thanks shan and yali for buying the flower, kel smelly jane beck alan mum yvonne joel shufang jason for coming! love u all. and all those people who were screaming my name. i think i heard soph and clar. apparently yali and shan were shouting too, and alvin jeremy and wei peng were shouting someone's name -_- lucky i never hear. anyway! duno why somehow xiaoan's performance didn't seem quite so zhai as during rehearsals, i think its cos the sound system mikes sucked, and the voice couldn't really be heard, but trust me he is damn good. i've heard that performance at least 6 times, and i still rock to it every single time. makan istmewa was good that night. somehow during rehearsals they were really bad and somehow they won. hahaha. maybe they were faking us during rehearsals or something. anyway we won some CHIJ chocolate fair vouchers. dammit. hahaha. what kinda prize is that?? i mean, even the lucky draw prizes were better! what is this man. i wanna complain. and they make us pay for the equipment rental as well! nuts. anyway all in all i had a LOTTT of fun. it was really dark and i couldn't see anyone at all from the stage, but it was still fun! albeit a leeeeeettle scary.
so yes, wonderful experience, thanks josh black marcus and koon for all that fun :) and sorry marcus again! yesh, MARCUS TAI JIA EN was our wonderful pianist that gave u that totally rockin version of my immortal! hahas. yeaaa.. thanks u all for making practices fun, for suanning blackie together, and for being Fragile! lol :)
rock rock rockin
on Heaven's door.
8:37 PM
Saturday, March 12
rocka / training camp
hmmmm.
i kinda did screw up rocka la,
haiyo =/
lesson one:
tune the damn guitar before the actual thing!! twice!! thrice!! whatever!!
haha. erms anyway.
sorry guys for screwing that up.
other than that it was fun!
someone is sooo cute.
damn damn.
hahas.
training camp
one day over,
one last final crazy day to go.
i know i didnt train as hard as i could cos of my knee though.. so.. well. doing my best i suppose. hopefully.
arrggh.
someone saaave me!
hahas.
dying.
alvin / jeremy :
all the best for canoeing tmr!
and no i will not be there to see *ahem*.
:) cheers :)
on a side note,
think i am kinda getting over someone.
that;s good, aint it? :)
well, i hope it isnt cos of my recent preoccupation with alot of things, but i dun think so la. so yeah..
okies,
gtg sleep
another long mad day tmr.
ta,
10:55 PM
Thursday, March 10
rockafellaskank
tomorrow is the big day.
tomorrow i must not screw up.
oh dear.....
=(
feeling kinda sian,
about this and that.
i;ve reached the stage
(again) where i just
wanna give up
but i can't.
and somehow,
i won't.
again and again.
you're sick of this,
i am too.
maybe i just need someone
else, will that someone
please come soon,
cos i;m dying.
or maybe you will
turn around.
i'm so tired of being here
cause your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time
cannot erase.
it'll be for you.
10:13 PM
Wednesday, March 9
this real fantasy
`
.
i like to live in dreams
maybe that's all that keeps me sane
cutting out unpleasant reality
and living by what's good,
what's nice.
`
all the time knowing
this life's really a farce
all the time seeing
your indifferent face as i walk past
do i tell myself
you're lying?
or do i let what i know
might be the horrible truth
sink in,
`
and let myself crumble
and let myself fall
and let myself tear
as you build up
this wall.
`
11:26 PM
arrrgh
arrrrgh!
can;t believe i just spent 24 bucks on a buffet where i only ate like max 8 bucks worth of food.. arrrrrrrrrrgggggggh. heart pain. damn pain sia. hrrms. okie it was damn funny, timo is like super FON (full of nonsense) but.. 24... wa......... i got nothing to say. really feel like i wasted alot of money. hmm, okie got some of the rocka tickets off my hands, so feel abit better.
arrrrgh!
so stressed.
got rocka coming up, and... we haven't quite got the last song down good yet. got training camp... and... i hope my knee doesnt gimme any problems. got S paper physics... and... i hope mr wong will let me take it like during/after hols cos i have no time now! i think he might just kick me out. bahs. got CT results coming out soon... and... i hope i dun do too badly so that i still can take S papers. hai. stress stress.
zhen me ban?
10:38 PM
self convidence
i'm stupid,
fat and ugly.
so what the hell
am i doing
taking S papers,
and staring
into the mirror?
i can't sing
that well.
so what the hell
am i doing
at rockafella?
i want the
only thing
i can't have.
so what the hell
is my heart
doing to me
everytime i
see you?
makes you
wonder,
eh?
5:33 PM
Monday, March 7
she me you
hmm.
is there a she?
oh i so wish
i could have you.
so much.
11:14 PM
cuuuuute X)
haha.. woah, just found out someone else was there when we were playing today as well. cute guy no. 2! ahas. (no, im not talking about you alvin, hahas) not bad not bad. too bad the lighting was so dim i couldn't see them. hrms. actually.. considering the first song sucked, maybe it wasn't such a good thing after all!
8:51 PM
blistering barnicles!
yknow in tintin where captain haddock says 'blistering barnicles!', well, BLISTERING BARNICLES! I'VE GOT TWO DAMN BIG BLISTERS ON EACH HAND, AND oops sorry forgot to off the caps, and they hurt alot!! issac lim made us do wheelbarrows around the track. not only did we look retarded, well, the blisters say them all. OUUUUUUCH. umm. makes my guitar playing a lil hard. hais! anyway rehearsals was ok, although according to people, the first song was abit off. hrrms. nvm try again :) mr. cute guy was at rehearsals. hahahs. i should try not to stare at him when im singing, eh? anyhow, i'm kinda sad cos that stupid khim can't come in the end and yali not coming cos of that. hmm :( okies, can't type well cos my hands cant rest on the keyboard!! oh this sucks!! okie nvm. feeling ok today, only saw someone once when i was walking to the toilet and he was walking to his toilet in the other building. lol weird. okies. chow.
6:56 PM
Sunday, March 6
rock rock rock!
yay,
my fingers are damn pain now
but it was a good day :)
went to jam
with blackie josh marcus and beehoon.
kewl!
won't tell u what songs we're doing,
its a surprise!
wanna know, buy tickets!
haha, anyways, ask some ppl in church today hopefully they'll be able to make it :) ummm. sigh. okies, i'm a busy girl. tmr i'm supposed to have phy S paper test (which i plan to do another day), econs S paper class (which i think i have to miss), judo enrichment prog, and rocka rehearsals. darn. and i thought after CTs can relax. oh wells.
feeling okay today..
not thinking so much for now.
umm, yes sadly, just for now.
9:12 PM
Saturday, March 5
okays,
disney-on-ice!
suddenly have this urge to go watch it.
hahas. wish i had a boyfriend,
he would take me :P
ahhhhh. *wistful look*
this morning,
woke up and puked out my digestive juices. in case you're wondering, nope, not nice at all. bitter and sour all at once. ewww. yeah, was kinda sick during the enrichment prog, and then felt really giddy during warmups for training so i stopped. hai, and feel like a slacker once again.
A results are out!
to a certain-senior-of-mine dun be too sad kays? :)
to the rest, congrats and all. hahas. sigh! i've set my goals. i really wanna get 3As and all. and i seriously hope i am not kicked outta S paper physics. hahs. its a likely thing tho.
angsty.
hahas, i seem to be alot of that nowadays, according to a few people. well, maybe so. no, i haven't really taken to swearing, don't worry. it was just a one-off kinda thing, so yups. i'm good i suppose.
oh yeas,
for those who;re wondering,
got C5 for my chinese. i don't care, i'm gonna retake til i get my A1. hahah. kidding. yay! no more chinese forever and ever amen.
rockafella, hai!
11march, falls on the first day of training camp.
cos of that, prolly alot of judo people arent going. HAAAIS.
especially shan. i'm really sad about it.. sigh :(
but i know she kinda has no choice la, so... well.
anyways those in BAY, please come kkkkkk.
i'll ask u guys tmr.
okay,
and, lastly, sorry for being mad at you.
sneeze, sneeze, sneeze and sneeze.
so sick. of it.
9:05 PM
fuck it
hai,
fuck la.
i said it.
i'm too drained
to do anything else.
12:41 AM
Thursday, March 3
wishing star
*
.
disney-on-ice
sound of music
pizzas
bus ticket
walk in the park
splashing sea
movies
escape
orange sprinkles
hazelnut gelato ice cream
pool
matchsticks
starry starry night
.
.
*
8:29 PM
hai
hai,
somebody goes to a concert with somebody,
somebody plays games with somebody,
somebody hangs out with somebody,
somebody teaches somebody something,
somebody laughs around somebody.
and i;m not supposed to care.
6:59 PM
Wednesday, March 2
angry
i hate this, damn it.
okay, FINE, so the person who helped me create this blog will NEVER tag on my board ever. okay, FINE, so the person who told me to msg him anytime will NEVER reply my msges theses days. okay, FINE, so the person who added me on msn will NEVER talk to me. okay, FINE, so the person who has owed me a testimonial since 7months ago will NEVER write me one. okay, FINE, so the person whom i wished good luck to for prelims, prelim results, o's, then o level results, will NEVER tell me how he did. okay, FINE, so the person i knew half a year ago will NEVER acknowledge my existence.
and you know what?
i know this isn't even your fault,
but right now i don't give a damn. because you know you're the cause of this, and you don't give a damn. i know its unfair to get mad, i know its childish to cry, i know its stupid to be like this.
BUT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE.
and what's more,
i know you like me being mad at you,
so here's to your happiness.
cheers.
8:34 PM
Tuesday, March 1
you and me
i just remembered one little dream i had, that at my first competition - whether i won / lost - i would hug you and laugh / cry. and i can still picture it. but then again, things couldn;t be further from the truth. i don't think you even watched. hmm. anyways, results for O's were out yesterday - and i don't really know if you're happy or sad, where you're planning to go, and heck, i'm not even sure how much you got. hmmm.
cos it's you and me
and all of the people
with nothing to do
and nothing to lose.
you and me.
11:58 AM
but i do , love you
i,
love you.
yeah.
and everytime
i think i'm over
you
you
just have to
smile, and
i,
go crazy
all over
again.
12:57 AM
